Total eclipse of the heart

Cairo sangat seronok part 2

2011-10-28T03:46:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum semuanya! Jadi bertemu lagi kita dalam Cairo sangat seronok. Saya telah memutuskan untuk memendekkan peneceritaan dan menambah koleksi gambar kerana tangan sungguh lenguh menaip. Boleh kan rakan-rakan?

Gambar diatas adalah Kubu Salahuddin Al-Ayubi. Apa? Siapakah Salahuddin Al-Ayubi? Sungguh ajaib ada juga manusia tak kenal, hmm hmm sebab malas nak cerita apa kata anda guna cik Google untuk menambahkan ilmu anda. Telah buat? Good girl and boy. T___T

Muka girang makan ayam masak kurma dengan minum air teh dan telah selesai solat jamak. Yes.

Kubu Salahuddin or known as Salah Al-Din Citadel ni sangat cantik dan scenery breathtaking. Dalam kawasan kubu ni ada masjid, muzium askar dan macam-macam pusat lagi. Jom kita jalan-jalan!

Tourist yang batak ambil gambar.

Bersama boyfriend terbaru. Janggut dia menawan hati. :')

Kapal perang yang urm urm urm, hebat.

Best cheerleader on earth bersama best soldier on earth. We are sweet. :')

Sebenarnya dalam file ada 2000 gambar tapi sampai habis sixth year kat sini pun takkan habis kalau upload semua. Wuwuwuwu

Okaylah, nanti kita buat part 3 nak? Nak shopping dekat Mina Mall ni. Hikhik tata everyone! Have a nice day! :)

Cairo sangat seronok

2011-10-28T03:13:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum pembaca bertuah. Saya ingin meminta maaf kerana sudah lama saya tidak mengunjungi baby saya kerana kesibukan diri melawan pelbagai perasaan malas. (-___-') Jadi setelah berkira-kira dan bertanya amu sayur bawah rumah apa tajuk sesuai nak cerita, saya telah memutuskan untuk menceritakan pengalaman saya mengunjungi Kaherah, ibu kota Mesir. Ayuh kita baca beramai-ramai.

Sebab kami kena bertolak ke Kaherah awal pagi, kami terpaksa menumpang kasih tidur di asrama Mara. Terima kasih Nadhirah Zaib sebab menjadi tuan rumah bagi kami tempat berteduh. Trip kami kali ini hanya disertai pelajar perempuan dibimbing abng serta kakak comel yang merupakan pasangan suami isteri. Haa amik kau baru tahu Mesir ni alim macam mana. T____T

Perjalanan about 2/3 jam bergantung kepada trafik.Tapi tak banyak yang boleh cerita sebab dalam bas asyik tidur tahu-tahu je sudah lepas sungai Nil. Ciss tak adil sungguh kehidupan. Tempat pertama yang kami lawati semestinya Piramid of Giza sebab piramid ini paling sempurna binaanya dan memang tarikan pelancong. A little info untuk anda semua, kerajaan Mesir baru sudah tidak membina piramid kerana memakan kos yang sangat besar dan kerajaan terpaksa memburuhkan rakyat. Sebagai solusi, raja-raja telah dikebumikan di satu tempat yang jauh daripada orang ramai kerana mengikut kepercayaan mereka, harta turut dikubumikan bersama si mati agar dapat digunakan di alam lain. Untuk mengelakkan kecurian, kerajaan terpaksa mencari tempat pengkebumian yang jauh daripada rakyat.

Okay penat dah ni sebenarnya taip macam buat karangan BM time SPM tapi karangan ini lagi kencang penulisannya.

Sebab pelancong harus mengambil gambar yang macam pelancong. Oh sungguh cliche kehidupan.

Time dekat piramid ni entrance fees hanya sebanyak Egp 30 dalam 15 ringgit sebab kami student. Lepas dah masuk dipersilakan berguling-guling, mungusap batu bata piramid, menangkap gambar sebanyak yang mungkin sambil mengelak penjual tepi jalan yang bertungkus-lumus memaksa kita membeli barang. Tapi sebab kesempitan duit, kami tak masuk dalam piramid, naik unta mahupun kuda. (-____-')

Nah rasakan serangan gambar bertubi-tubi.

Piramid ni a must visit place kalau datang Mesir. Spare some time to come here and see it for yourself. Bagaimana Allah ilhamkan dalam hati manusia untuk mencipta binaan seunik ini, MasyaAllah. (sebenarnya telah pinjam ayat abang yang jadi tour guide) Terima kasih abang.

Then lets move to Sphinx which is a cat or a lion? Err entah la mungkinkah acukan kucing dan singa maka terbinalah Sphinx? Keliru ni. Sphinx ni pun boleh tahan menarik dan unik ala-ala Sunway Piramid dekat Subang.

Lepas dah berminyak-minyak muka tahan panas sebab nak tangkap gambar, kami telah berehat di Masjid Amru bin Al-As. Sorry kalau ejaan tak betul tapi sebenarnya masjid ni masjid pertama yang dibina di Mesir oleh Amru bin Al-As. Sila Google sendiri kalau nak tahu history masjid ini. ---------

Lagi serangan gambar

Masjid ini sangat lah cantik dan Alhamdulillah rasa bersyukur sangat dapat merasa bersolat, berdoa di sini.

Okay lah, macam dah panjang post kali ini, nanti the rest of the story kita sambung dalam post lain ye.
Pesanan ringkas daripada penaja. Jaga ibadah, jaga akhlak, minum banyak air, mari bersenam dan mari jadi pelajar cemerlang. :)

Egypt part 2

2011-10-01T16:52:00.000-07:00

Hi and hello from the land of no rain and extreme driver.

So it seems like I'm kinda used of living here. I can eat the foods, I still have a good time and I am more expert in sign language since I still haven't master my Arabic language. But I'm also turning numb. I seem to be less sad when my family said they misses me. I feel completely nothing.

Its October now and class will start in a week, and should I say I am thrilled to be called a medic student. Not to add on the pressure of studying, lack of sleep, tonnes of work and a million other problem. At the end of the day, I'll make myself a cup of coffee. That's the best cure for someone like me.I did browse through Kak Iman's module 1 and 2. Its gonna be an interesting when I start studying.

I feel sad sometimes, I don't know why but I feel vulnerable. Now I understand Kak Wa when she said that I gotta find a guy where I can rely on here, not being flirty but a helping hand. Being in another country, without a guy by your side can be a challenge sometimes. Trust me.

Okay I'm sorry for posting super random things. I still haven't had the mood to update precisely on the food, culture and stuff. Till then, take care guys and girls! May Allah bless you and me.

Egypt

2011-09-19T11:20:00.000-07:00

Ya Allah tak sangka dah sampai Egypt.
By the way sorry for not updating, its been pretty hectic and macam lah ada orang baca kan. Hehe

Anyway Alhamdulillah so far everything is good.
Danisha Soraya is still going strong lah.
Praying for the best.

Okaylah, i will post some more InsyaAllah later.
I am more active on twitter so you can find me there.

"Adik jauh di mata tapi sangat dekat di hati," - Mummy, before leaving Egypt. *Big bear hug* :')

Please :/

2011-06-18T11:19:00.000-07:00

Ya Allah please
Set my heart straight
My focus 100% ahead
Please Heart,
Don't be so rebellious
This ONE time
I need strength

ERL, US dan Bola Sepak

2011-06-11T05:13:00.000-07:00

Hi Hi Semua! Apa Khabar anda? Aku sihat je. XD Jadi hari ini aku mengalamai hari yang boleh tahan adventure lah ye, kenapa adventure? Adakah sebab raksasa telah turun ke bumi dan menakluk dunia dan aku sebagai superhero harus mempertahankan penduduk bumi? Ohh kenapa aku melalut time macam ni? Sebenarnya hari ini, 11 Jun 2011, aku dan rakan rakan batch yang lain telah menghantar Niah dan Nuek ke KLIA sebab diaorg akan melanjutkan pelajaran di US, Omg aku pulak yang excited lebih! Sukanya sukanya! (sila baca dengan nada manja dan ceria, menepuk tangan dan melompat kegirangan)

Wuwuwuwuwuwuwu sedihnya aku try grab gambar niah tapi dia privatekan pulak dah T____T Tapi anyway aku dan Mimi kesayangan telah berjaya sampai ke KLIA dengan bantuan Aisyah tersayang dan Husni Afiq yang baik, ehem ehem -_______- (aku puji kau ni, suka tak?) Tapi satu je yang membuatkan air mata aku mengalir dalam hati, aku kena naik ERL yang menelan duit aku sebanyak 16 ringgit, wehhh banyak tu 16 ringgit, makan dekat Raff 4 hari kenyang wa cakap sama lu! Memang mula-mula aku emotional jugak sebab KLIA express punya ticket harga 35 ringgit, memang tak lah aku nak beli kan, baju aku pun aku cari harga lagi murah. Kan dah kantoi aku beli baju murah murah, Cis!

Tapi memang selamat kiteorang sampai KLIA and happy pulak aku sebab ramai budak batch yg menghantar diaorg, yang nk fly 2 org, tapi sekampung datang, haha Bangga aku kawan-kawan aku berjaya macam ni :') Nanti tunggu sebab aku pulak menyusul ye.Tinggi angan-angan aku kan, padahal belajar math separuh jalan, good job Danisha!

Oh malam ni jugak Terengganu lawan Kelantan, Peteh Ganu Peteh, alah aku tak kisah menang kalah, janji aku enjoy tengok orang pakai macam sakai pastu bawak bendera negeri masing-masing, oh peliknya tujuan aku minat bola kan? Nanti lah aku bagi post panjang sikit, aku ni duk teringat report physicys yang due monday ni, nak mampus aku kalau tak hantar, baik aku berusaha jawab, soalan dahla susah, critical thinking bagai mencabar neuron otak aku. Selasa pulak ada test math, takkan aku nak bodoh sorang je, aku tak suka jadi bodoh, biar pandai baru cool, okay doakan aku consistent study, jangan tangan gatal nak online.Haaaaaaaaaaa

P/S : Ouch aku sedih ni, so bila sedih kita kena buat apa ye? :/

4 Ringgit Awak :)

2011-06-09T22:47:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt brothers and sisters! eh suka hati je, bila masa mak aku kahwin dengan ayah korang? Okay so i'm back!!!! Ohhh agak lama aku tak update blog aku ni, the main reason is sebab aku dah sambung study balik, and its at UiTM Puncak Alam in Asasi Sains. Apa itu asasi sains? Dia ala-ala preparation untuk kami sambung study dalam bidang yg lebih specific time degree nanti. Okay memang pelik aku explain tapi sebab macik dan pacik zaman sekarang ni manalah thu pasal asasi ni, zaman dulu yang ada pun only matriks, so bila sebut asasi ni terkebil kebil mata diaorg nak faham apa course tu. And tak kurang jugak ada yg ingat bdk2 asasi ni low lah, macam x lepas SPM gitu, takpe macik, saya maafkan, ikhlas ni.

Alhamdulillah so far class aku semua okay lah, belajar memang laju macam bullet train, tapi bullet train ada jugak stop kt platform, kiteorg ni belajar non stop.Bayangkan class aku everyday start 8.30 pagi, ada hari 6.00 petang baru habis class, kalau lecturer rajin smpai 6.30 dia extend class, and in between class ada 10 minutes break untuk kiteorg lari-lari tukar class, berebut lif, naik tangga, rempuh budak sana sini, baru masuk class lain. T_____T Memang mula-mula tuh horror jugak aku kan, yelah ingtke masuk universiti ada masa relax, ni lagi panjang class. Then lepas Maghrib aku ngan Mimi akan turun Raff nk smbung study dgn bdk2 lain, memang otak aku macam saturated fat jadinya. So maafkan aku for the lack of post. (macam ada je org tunggu post baru aku) hahahahaha

Oh ye rumah aku best lah jugak! Satu rumah only ada 8 orang, toilet pun ada 3 dalam rumah, and part yang paling best sebab roommate aku adalah Sharmimi Razak, so tak payah susah-susah aku nak buat ice breaking dengan orang baru, and aku tengok housemate aku pun okay je, happening lah jugak even masin-masing tension dengan tutorial and class.Kiteorg pun suka lepak sama-sama sambil berbincang pasal topic yang tak difahami, (tipu je ni)

Tapi benda paling aku nak cerita kat sini is makanan dekat UiTM ni murah gila tahap susah nk percaya, memang aku dah survey, rata-rata bagi harga terbaik dari ladang. Aku paling suka tapau nasi bungkus dekat satu kedai ni nama Ema Cafe sebab lauk dia paling banyak and sedap, dan yang paling menariknya is betapa banyak aku amik lauk, contohnya nasi dengan ayam, kuah, sayur and telur masin, harganya mesti 4 ringgit and abang yang jaga kaunter ni mesti sebut, "4 Ringgit awak," :D Okay serious hari2 aku dengar dia sebut harga ni dekat aku, and bila beruntung sikit lagi murah, memang heaven, :') Thank You Ema Cafe!

So even aku penat study pagi petang siang malam, aku nak take life as simple as it should be, bak kata Mimi, Bila nak study kita study, penat kita tido, lapar kita makan, :)

Terasa terasa

2011-05-20T06:16:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt

Aku rasa korang mesti muntah hijau baca fourth post aku for the day. Eleh aku tak kisah pun, serious tak. Tapi aku macam nak cerita something dekat korang, sedih ada, nak marah pun ada. Relax Danisha relax! Okay korang taknak tahu pun aku nak cerita.

Macam ni ceritanya, aku ada ramai kawan, mestilah tak ada apa pelik dengan ramai kawan. Yes aku akui aku susah nak open up diri aku dekat orang, tapi bila aku dah kenal orang, my God, aku ni boleh jadi annoying macam beruk dapat pisang. The problem is, aku sangatlah tak suka fake friends. Macam mana fake friends ni? Aku rasa most of you out there must have one or some. Terpulang pada tahap persahabatan korang lah kan? And sebenarnya fake friends ni okay lagi sebab takkn lah kita ni disukai oleh semua orang kan? So fake friends are a good way of testing how true your friends is to you.

********************************MY BABES***************************************

Okay the thing is, korang tak rasa sedih, nak marah, sakit hati, and macam-macam lagi bila kawan korang blame korang atas failure or pengaruh buruk diaorg. Like WTH kan? Ada ke aku mintak kawan aku ikut perangai buruk aku? Lame gila nak salahkan orang, c'mon lah, tak maju orang Malaysia macam ini.

A : Kau nak tahu tak, aku punya result SPM teruk sebab dia lah, dia ............................................
B : Oh ye ke? kenapa?
A : Dia kan ..........................................

C : Mak tak suka kau kawan dengan .................. Sebab dia kau ...........................................

D : Sorry lah lambat pergi class! Aku ikut si........................ karok malam tadi, hish dia tuh
E : Padan lah kau

*Okay ini contoh ayat lah, ikut daya kreativiti otak aku buat ayat je -__-

Terasa lah, aku bukan bad influence dekat orang sebab aku bukanlah jahat gila, Alhamdulillah i don't do drugs, sex or alcohol so far. Aku jugak tak pernah mintak kawan-kawan aku ikut perangai aku. Bak kata pepatah, Buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih. So kenapa nak ikut perangai tak elok orang kan? Tak maju bro salahkan orang je, like seriously!

Aku terasa terasa and terasa, whatever your reason is, aku tak suka lah macam ni derr! Lain kali ingat korang dapat bad infuence daripada aku, jangan kawan lah. Hehe okay kawan lah tapi know your limit. Kita dikurniakan akal untuk berfikir, nama sendiri, life sendiri, jangan lah kita rasa kita FLAWLESS pulak blame orang lain atas failure kita!

Aku dah tukar post ni ikut tahap kesopanan aku, takpe aku masih mampu chill sabar gelak-gelak, tapi panasss juga ni derr. Takpe, siapa yang aku tak contact sangat, faham lah kenapa, aku tanak buat life korang miserable lagi. Tak best berkawan kalau kita asyik buat orang sakit hati je.

Okay aku dah start depress and emotional, aku nak tengok Harry Potter lah macam ni. Renung-renungkan ye kawan-kawan, kalau korang pun mesti terasa kan?

*Gambar tu orang-orang yang buat saya happy, hohoho >.

I'm leavin on a jet plane :')

2011-05-20T03:11:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt

Okay aku rasa tajuk ni maybe over, sebab aku nak pergi Puncak Alam je pun, gaya nak pergi Amerika, and aku rasa ayah aku drive kereta, bukan jet plane. Tadi mummy sibuk paksa aku check barang apa yang aku nak bawak, in case aku ada kurang barang, boleh pulun beli harini dengan esok. Honestly aku malas nak packing, dulu duduk asrama pun pagi nak balik baru aku tahu packing so maybe tabiat packing last minute dah melekat dengan aku, Nevertheless, aku menjadi anak baik (sangat bajet) pun selak borang UiTM. Minngu destini siswa tu takde lah mintak apa pun, cuma ada satu yang caught attention aku, BAJU KURUNG PUTIH DENGAN KAIN GELAP, aku pun like what...? Baju apa dia nak ni, baju kurung putih? Aku bawak baju sekolah kang ada yang pandang serong pulak, siap mintak kain hitam lagi, depressed aku.

Aku takde lah mintak parents aku beli macam-macam barang untuk aku daftar universiti ini, aku bukan nak pergi bergembira or masuk modelling contest kan, aku nak pergi belajar, so aku rasa nak gasak jelah borong baju kurung prep aku pergi universiti nih, cuma aku tambah dua tiga yang memang ada dalam almari aku. Bab-bab kasut je aku mintak dengan ayah aku, nanti aku post dekat another post ye.And aku ngan Mimie decide nak pakai biasa-biasa je dulu, ala-ala budak skema gitu, bukan apa, awal lagi nak bergaya lebih-lebih, ikut flow sana sudah la.

Aku rasa tertipu dengan kerajaan, cewahhh takla, cuma i thought cuti sampai bulan September so aku dah set mind aku nih, "Danisha, enjoy sampai lebam, cuti lama lagi, " alih-alih UiTM yang daftar awal dulu, hish, depressed lah macam ni.Aku pun tak tahu mana semua stationary aku, maklumlah, dulu habis SPM aku teraburkan satu rumah, now mula terkulat-kulat aku kutip pensil dekat rumah ni, hadoy.

So aku harap korang faham kenapa aku punya post berlambak dekat blogspot ni, aku rindu pulak nanti baby aku sorang ni, Awwwhhh :'). And kepala aku sekarang tengah pening fikir hala tuju hidup aku, so aku dah decide tak nak bercintan cintun throughout my study ni, maybe kalau aku ada boyfriend pun aku akan slow je dengan dia. hehe

Eh macam menyimpang je dengan apa aku nak post sebenarnya, aku nak buat draft barang nak bawak, boleh aku bajet beg saiz apa aku nak bawak, haha. So help me out, apa nak bawa awal-awal ni? Kan senang if boleh bawak satu rumah aku je. Dahla adik aku dah macam mogok je aku tak nak bagi dia guna laptop, maklum lah broadband satu so laptop banyak pun takde guna jugak. Dasar anak last, nak apa je mesti dapat. Takpelah, tadi aku dah tibai nasi tomato dia, so be nice to your sister Danisha. :')

Nanti next post ke kita packing sama-sama yes? Good!

Makan makan

2011-05-19T21:34:00.000-07:00

Assalamualikum wbt

Harini aku bangun subuh lepas alarm ayam aku sibuk bunyi, macam biasa sebagai bibik bertauliah aka anak solehah aku pun mengiron baju office ayah aku and memang best hari jumaat sebab baju office dia lengan pendek, save masa aku iron.Aku decide aku tak nak tidur balik lepas subuh walau tidur merupakan benda paling aku suka dalam dunia, yes aku sangat suka tidur, budak SBP yang tegar lah katakan, mana ada peluang mesti aku lelap terutama bila angin sepoi-sepoi bahasa and air-cond bilik pasang tahap paling membekukan, pergh.

Tapi tak, aku rasa nak online dan setelah penat mengeratkan silaturrahin dengan kawan-kawan, perut aku mula nyanyi lagu JLo yang baru tu, Get On The Floor. Tapi aku ignore je, malas bukan main aku ni, makan nak, masak no way, pergi mampus aku nak masak kan? aku tengok sedap je abg aku tidur so aku decide nak tinggu dia bangun jelah. And makin lama perut aku bukan main kuat dia berdisko, kalah Saturday Night Fever.Dah macam IPod dah perut aku main macam-macam lagu so bila abg aku bangun aku buat muka penyu dekat dia, yes muka penyu, pehal kau? haha

Abang aku pun suruh aku masak, macam what? Aku nak masak apa kan? Aku buat muka penyu sakit perut dekat dia and dia cadangkan aku masak je Maggi kari, aku dengan bersemangat pergi dapur, cari periuk Vision mak aku and letak air, tunggu boil and aku campak je maggi tuh dekat dalam, crak dua bijik telur and campurkan sekali, (abg aku lagi pro crack telursebab dia guna satu tangan je). Sementara nak tunggu maggi aku tu masak, aku bukak fridge,and zapp nampak Cheese Cake Wani bagi, slow-slow aku telan Cheese Cake tuh, memang macam heaven gila, macam korang pergi dive dekat Niagara Falls, haha. Bila aku hidangkan tak sangka air macam TERkurang air and maggi jadi sangatlah pekat.Tapi despite everything, aku and abg makan dengan berselera plus minum air rutbir segelas sorang and to close it off, kitaorg makan cadbury yang ayah aku borong dekat sogo semalam, Heaven.

Teringat pulak aku masa kecil-kecil dulu aku kan sekolah cina, so before pergi sekolah, mak aku make sure beli nasi lemak and apam kecik yang warna warni tuu dalam seringgit, zaman dulu, seringgit tu dah dapat 15 biji aku rasa,so aku and abang memang SUKA MAKAN. Dari situ aku develop rasa nak makan and sangat suka makan, bagi aku Allah dah turunkan makanan sedap-sedap dekat dunia so kita rasa, why lah sombong sangat tak nak rasa? haha

Oh oh korang ingat jugak tak if skolah rendah dulu-dulu habis sekolah je masti lari nak pergi beli sate ikan, alah yang harga satu cucuk 50 sen takpun 1 ringgit tak silap aku, Ohmaigod sedap gila aku mesti beli banyak terus, haha.Lepas tu bila penat tuisyen je nanti pakcik eskrim datang, aku pun dengan laju sprint nak beli eskrim, padlepop pelangi yg 80 sen yang memang sedap and aku suka eskrim yam yg dengat biskut, harga seringgit je derr, memang murah gila!

Sebenarnya jangan tanya aku pasal makan sebab memang aku suka makan, dulu time dekat asrama walau makanan tahap campak dekat cicak pun aku make sure aku makan, time kecik dulu adalah jugak aku makan and the cakap, "yecks, tak sedap lansung!" tapi bila aku dah besar ni aku rasa insaf lah kan, *dush. So aku akan kata aku okay dengan makanan, sebab semua makanan adalah rezeki, ada org dekat haiti tuh( eh betul ke aku ni dekat haiti) kelaparan and mati tak cukup makan, kita pulak tak sedap sikit je campak sana sini, sampai kucing dekat Malaysia ni pun kalau bagi makanan tak sedap dia pun taknak makan, Eewwww mengada! Last-last tong sampah jugak jadi mangsa.

Okay sorry lah terbagi ceramah dekat korang, aku just banyak benda nak cakap and aku rasa membazir if tak share. Oh yea arnab aku pun dah gemuk sekarang, mana taknye, pallet dia makan, kangkung, apple, carrot and segala bagai makanan, nasib baik badan dia still gebu-gebu hot even dah beranak 5. XD

Okay sorry again if korang rasa crap membaca post aku or korang tanak tahu pun apa aku nak tulis tapi sedar tak yang korang dah habiskan membaca post ni. Great Job!

*Nanti aku nak post bucket list makanan yang aku nak makan, tunggu jelah ye, maybe harini aku lapar, sebab tu aku asyik cakap pasal makanan.

Okaylah aku nak cari makanan nak tambah kecomelan aku ni.

Happy Eighteen Lovelies

2011-05-19T17:43:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt and a veryyyyy good morning girls and boys, Today i would like to tell you a story entitled my friend, Sharmimi Razak the GEDIK girl, before i continue, i would like all off you to lend me your eyes to read this post. Do enjoy my story!

Ehem ehem, ada gaya macam story telling tak? hehe actually Danisha Soraya memang wakil Zon Bangsar in story telling dulu-dulu, kira memang saya ada bakat terpendam people.Okay enough with the crap talk. Nampak gambar yang saya dah edit lawa-lawa above tak? Tak nampak? Scroll balik atas sikit, okay dah? Tengok dua budak perempuan yang comel tu, yang baju cokelat tuu nama dia Sharmimi Razak, nama dalam IC pulak N*r Sharmimi binti __________ *Mimie aku tak ingat nama ayah kau ada Abdul ke, Abd ke takpun takde apa-apa dekat depan, hehe sorry.Tarikh lahir :- 19 Mei 1993. (Mimie aku tengah promote kau ni, happy tak? Happy tak?) :D

Saya kenal budak gedik-gedik manja ni dekat Kusess, tapi memang kena admit yang time kami Form 4 kami tak rapat, then bila naik Form 5 baru start click, kemudian sewaktu SPM kami duduk dorm Anggerik 1 aka MT Impian, (hoho syatrah ingat tak dorm ini?). Then start dari situ memang Sharmimi Razak ni macam Danisha Soraya punya, and yang paling diingati is air jus Guava dia which i can drink even orang lain kata tak sedap!

Then jangan tak tahu, kami serious banyak jodoh, sekolah sama, driving academy sama, nanti university pun nak sama, memang lamaaaaaaaaaaaaa lagi aku jumpa budak ni.Hohoho Nanti kita study sama-sama dekat Puncak Alam Fanaaa tuh biar dua-dua masuk Dean's List ye yunk? Jangan pulak tinggal aku bila dapat kawan baru, memang nak kena dengan aku!

To my dear Sharmimi Razak aka yayunk saya aka laling saya :-

Aku doakan kau semoga berjaya dunia akhirat (Amin)
Semoga kau sentiasa jadi anak solehah kepada kedua-dua parents kau
Semoga apa yang kau hajati dalam hidup akan tercapai
Semoga kau punya kesihatan always tip top
Semoga kau dapat mengejar kecomelan aku (muahahahaha)
Semoga segala perkara yang kau lakukan berjaya
Semoga bertambah bahagia, murah rezeki
Semoga persahabatan kita kekal insyaAllah sampai bila-bila

Okay dan semoga aku tak pernah cakap semoga banyak macam ini dah, *pening tengok banyak semoga.

Whatever it is, i'll always be by your side, supporting you, jangan risau, aku memang tanak pergi jauh-jauh dari hidup kau.huhuhu

Hidup baik-baik Sharmimi Razak, Danisha Soraya sayang Sharmimi Razak!

Okay perempuan cantik dalam gambar ni pulak Ashikin Fauzi, kembar Sharmimi Razak, lain mak, lain ayah. History kami lagi lama, dari Form 1, tapi dia budak baik, pelajar cemerlang sekolah, aku pulak budak boleh tahan baik and boleh tahan cemerlang dekat sekolah, lain sikit je kan Shikin?

She is one hardworking girl, yang baik-baik punya type tu, that's how she is, the semangat PERDANA sebab dia captain, so memang tak salah lah kan? Shikin, wherever you are, don't ever change okay honey? Be the same old Ashikin Fauzi yang semangat, baik, and rajin, only the better and stronger version je allowed. I'm gonna miss you buddy, take care!

Shikin :-

Semoga berjaya dunia akhirat
Semoga sentiasa berjaya dalam hidup
Semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki
Semoga kau selalu jadi Ashikin Fauzi yang baik (hohoho)
Semoga kau jangan lupakan aku!

*pening banyak sangat semoga

Anyway girls, Happy 18th Birthday! Lets Partyyyyyyyyyy! :D

I Love You Mummy

2011-05-17T19:53:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Mummy, i know the chances of you reading this post is close to zero, but i'll post anyway, not to tell the world how much i love you, but to remind myself over and over again of why it is worth taking care of my life for you. If only you know it mummy.

Happy belated birthday mummy, wah dah 45 tahun lah my mum yg cun sorang nih, may Allah bless you and the whole family, insyaAllah, kita try seek His pleasure pulak. I'm wishing you a happy healthy life ahead of you and a good health to accompany that with.Doakan anak-anak mummy be somebody useful in the future and most importantly, adik( yes mak saya panggil saya adik) doakan mummy and daddy sentiasa bahagia.

Mummy, cepat-cepat pencen, nanti adik kumpul harta satu gunung then kita pergi shopping banyak-banyak ye?Tapi jangan lupa jaga health mummy tuu, so that senang kita nak berjalan dua tiga jam tanpa rasa lelah. And mummy kena sentiasa sihat so that mummy boleh jaga cucu-cucu mummy,(tak kawin Danisha if bakal laki saya baca yang ini). :D

The whole family loves you mummy, you are our great cook, i love waking up on weekends knowing yang adik akan digemukkan dengan makanan yang lazat-lazat, and i especially love your ayam masak merah, nasi dagang, nasi minyak, kari, gulai, nasi tomato, nasi ayam, nasi himpit kuah kacang, wait! Kalau nk list semua memang 300 post pun takkn habis, but thank you for feeding us with love and care.

Mummy jangan sedih tengok anak-anak orang lain dapat fly sana sini pergi UK, Australia, US, Russia and tempat lain, nanti ada rezeki adik, adik pergi jugak sana, and nanti bila adik dah kaya (memang saya suka jadi kaya, so what?) bukan setakat negara-negara tu yang adik bawak mummy, kita pergi France, Spain, Tokyo, Canada, German, New Zealand, Mexico, Hawaii, Switzerland, even sampai Zimbabwe pun boleh! I just need your prayer and support so that i'll study harder.

Even that i'll grow up and have my own life and be a mummy too someday, u'll always be my award winning mom, the one that when i feel like giving up, i'll remember you mum and i'll pick myself up again.No worries mummy, even that we are not the richest family in the world, know that your three precious gems will always look out for you, like you did to us, we will be your most precious treasure, a living proof of how well you did in raising us up.

I love you Mummy <3

1.51 am

2011-05-17T11:05:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum,
Ehem ehem, sorry, writing quality mungkin out
Penat sebab banyak sangat tidur, yes, terlalu banyak
Sayu hati nak pergi UiTM Puncak Alam
Tapi tak sabar nak belajar sementara semangat tengah membara
Nanti kita Dean's list sama-sama okay friends?

Bengkak hati, perit, pedih
Semua mixed emotions jadi satu
Kenapa sedih?
Kenapa happy?
Kenapa rasa NUMB sangat sekarang?
Maybe sebab hati saya dah tawar kut
No more tears kan?

Silent je handphone
Malas nak text orang
Biarlah maybe dia busy
Tapi bila saya tak answer call, sorry
I don't feel like talking

InsyaAllah saya dah nak grow up
Benda kecil takkn senang jatuhkan saya
Saya nak prioritize hidup balik
Study sangat penting now
One shot je maybe?

Doakan saya fellow readers

Mixed veggies

2011-05-17T10:03:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt, sorry sangat2 for those yang asyik2 bukak blog ni tapi post yg sama jugak terpancul keluar,yes people, i'm tired, busy dalam kepala je, jangan nak asyik bagi alasan busyyyyyyyy memanjang Danisha, please.For those who step up to me and said that' "Danisha, aku baca blog kau! Bila nk update ni?" hehehe thank you so much! Rasa macam penulis terkenal, macam penat lelah aku draft ayat dalam otak then paksa jari jemari aku yang halus, yes sangat halus ni menaip beratus ratus words berbalas.Thank You!

Last sunday aku balik ke Kusess, and for those yang tanya, "Kusess? Apa tuh? Makanan ke haiwan peliharaan?" aku nak je sepak laju2 tapi senyum and berkata, "Its my high school, tempat aku jumpa ramai REAL friends and a hell loads of hardcore foes, tapi jangan risau for those yg tak in favor kewujudan aku dekat sekolah tu, tak jejas pun,".And setelah puas aku explain habis baik, otak ni dah mula ligat berputar ingat balik jalan Kesas highway then pass Shah Alam then ke Gutherie then lalu Ijok, Bukit Rotan and Assam Jawa, nampak Tesco Kuala Selangor, and dengan perasaan bercampur baur, belok kiri nak pergi Kusess.

*Sorry ingat nak upload gambar sekolah tapi malas nk browse folder cari.

Hmmm kalau cakap Kusess je where to start? Duduk sana jadi warga for 5 years certainly bukan time yg pendek and banyak ilmu-ilmu yang aku dapat, i lost track of time lah kalau nak cakap semua. But i'll try my best.Sebenarnya post ni nak cakap about my batch comeback to Kusess.

The 0610 batch has decided to thank the teachers by reaching our hearts through our tummies-Sm Sains Kuala Selangor

Yes you've read it right, kalau agak2 baca salah pergi hantuk kepala dekat dinding. Okay jangan buat, bahaya, hehehe. Alhamdulillah plan batch untuk buat makan-makan in celebrating the teachers and as a way to thank them dah berjaya.Kalau nak cakap bab makan memang sangat best, ada nasi ayam, ketupat yg rakan-rakan puteri anyam, nasi himpit kuah kacang, rendang, dodol handmade rakan-rakan putera, and the list goes on and on.
Tapi jangan harap aku masak semua ni, no way, aku je tolong2 mana patut.And for sure meng-capture gambar2 batchmate Sixten yg macam2 pose.

Rasa macam mimpi, bila tengok semua kawan2 dah kembali ke sekolah, tapi bukan sebagai pelajar, bukan dengan baju batik or baju Kusess tapi sebagai bekas pelajar, still as a group of Sixten but never is a school kid again.Semua boys dengan gaya rambut kalah artis top, perempuan pun dah bertambah ayu. Macam kena lempang muka laju-laju sebab tak percaya dah keluar sekolah.And ramai juga drive ke sekolah, dengan sticker P dekat kereta and motor, muka memang dah all grown up.

*Sorry, bukan niat nak buat karangan tapi this post actually has no end to it.

there was a person came to me and ask " should i get a congrats?"
and his name is 'sixten'!

*congrats 'sixten' 4 da day! c:
(Amir rayhan)

I hope yesterday's wonderful time will be repeated once more after we graduated.... =]
(Visagan)

Yesterday was a great wonderful day. With those faces and voices that are close to my heart. The faces and voices of SIXTEN. I wonder when i can see all those faces and hear those voices again. Perhaps, yesterday will not be the last time.
(Hilmi Ahmad)

Even the 6 changed to 10..10 evolved to 11..11 past till 12..
Hey wait,ill still be 0610 bcoz this numbers bring joys forever!;)
(Azlan Iskandar)

love sixten..miss u guys....♥ hehehe
(Mirza)

Good job semua :)
(Sharmimi Razak)

AKU ♥ SIXTEN
(Ezzat Amirimran)

Mata rasa bengkak plus berair bila baca how every batchmate of mine really enjoy our comeback.It feels good to be HOME, tempat kita main-main sama-sama, our little playground, our own world where friendship is almost everything.InsyaAllah, we'll be somebody useful out there, to the community, religion and nation.

Hidup baik-baik my fellow Sixten, no worries, you are not alone, bila rindu dekat batch and sekolah, rajinkan diri jenguk page group dekat Facebook.

Till then, i hope that was no the last time we will gather, that is only the beginning of a new phase in life,

And then we all go our separate ways-Slide batch, last night at kusess -8/12/2010

:')

Dear You

2011-05-14T02:05:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt, hey you, how's life lately? Is it good or bad? How's your study? I'm not sure either you'll be reading this but i had been sick of keeping all of this inside my head alone.The truth is, i still want you, no more of that i had to explain, i never really know how to forget you, i just don't.

Hey you, there is always so much to explain, things that are left with mystery, the purpose of why i behave like i behave, i had been acting like a spoil child around you, acting selfish and disrespecting you.Hey you, the truth is, i was way too young to understand US, i don't believe in forever and i didn't saw how much you really cared. I wish i could give myself a good hard slap on the face for acting like i did, i really am sorry. It amazed me how you really stayed like you said.

Hey you, i'm worried sick of the way i have been missing you lately.My mind keep on replaying on and on and on your name and your face, the things that i used to not cared at all. I've told myself to stop, to get over you and move on like everyone else but i could not, my heart longs for you.

Hey you, once i was a fool, i keep listening to others who said we shouldn't be together, that i should find someone better, and like a fool, i listened to them, ignoring you and pushing you aside.Then i said some stupid thing that could break your heart.I cried inside when i think of my behavior towards you,

Hey you, you ask me why, why did i do that to you and honestly, i don't have any answer for that at all, and when all of it is too late, i started to feel the foolishness.

Hey you, my words. all of this could never replace how deeply sorry i am, and i begged for you to be together again, but everything is too late, karma had speak for itself, you found yourself a new princess now. The day you promised to make her your everything, is the exact same day my heart will never ever be the same again.I never wish to know about her, not a single thing about her, as that only will cut my heart deeper.

Hey you, take care being a man out there, be somebody strong and love her unconditionally, my heart still bleeds and i am still a fool for you but i promised myself not to break your heart once again.Therefore i shall put a gap between us.

Hey you, i cried myself to sleep every night, holding my phone waiting for you, and i always end up waking feeling terrible, there is nothing from you, its just plain silence. I could not describe how i cried and cried and cried wishing i could turn back time where you and me spelled us.

Hey you, i would never be the same, i would never love the same, i would always have a hole in my heart and i promised myself not to be so vulnerable like now ever again.

Hey you, good luck in life my man, be a gentleman, be a fighter, and most of all, don't break her heart like you break mine.

Shahira Ellyna Badrul Hisham

2011-05-13T23:47:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt dan salam satu Malaysia, (hehehehehe)

This post kali ini rather SPECIAL sebab i'm talking about one of my girlfriend, my right hand, half of what had made me.

Meet Shahira Ellyna, sorry i takde ONE word to describe her because she is just so PERFECT in her own way.Don't get me wrong, bukannye dia takde flaws, its just that bila ira ni dengan i, rasa macam perfect je, there's always something fun to do, topics to talk about, things to discuss.

I only baik dengan dia start my senior year which kitaorg jadi classmate, by that time memang lah awkward2 lagi dengan dia, then as time pass by, kitaorg jadi rapat, let me tell you something about her, she is the only anak perempuan dalam family which made her the princess lah kan? She is very pembersih, memang dkt class, pantang bersepah, memang dia akan berbunyi.hehehe.She is tall and one thing that i like about her is her face. she is so pretty!Kiranya memang sedap mata memandang, and she is a good friend, i share a lot of story dengan dia, and she share her's with me.The most important thing is dia anak yg baik and taat pada perintah agama, Alhamdulillah.

Now that we are not in Kusess anymore, its going to be tough living life without her because she had been my backbone all this while.She's going to study law in UIA and i hope she's gonna be one hell of a future smacker.Even with all miles separating us, i'll promise myself to always had her back when she needs me, to be her backbone too.InsyaAllah, the time and long distance doesn't separate both of us but made us grew stronger .

To my Shahira Ellyna:-

Sorry if i had never been a good friend of yours, but you are mine indeed, kau buat aku kuat nak fight time SPM dulu, u made me belive in myself when others doubted me.Thanks for the advices, the kata2 semangat, all the fun times we had together, all the ilmu yang kau sudi konsi dengan aku.Maybe masa kita kenal tak lama, tak sempat nak mesra dah bawa haluan masing2 tapi aku harap nama aku sentiasa ada special spot dalam hati kau. Know that i am always there for you, as a friend and as a sister, regardless apa2 jadi, aku sentiasa sayang kau like my own adik beradik.

Maybe we won't be able to wear the same school uniform, having the same old conversation at the same old spot but time will never change us kan?Semoga kau sentiasa kuat nak hadapi dunia luar tu, you are a big girl now, benda2 kecil takkn senang menjatuhkan kau.Jangan lupa dekat agama, sebab even if satu hari nanti aku takde untuk kau, Allah sentiasa ada.Belajar rajin2, be somebody useful and berjaya dunia akhirat.

Semoga kau panjang umur, murah rezeki, dirahmati Allah, jadi yang terbaik dalam apa-apa kau buat.

Aku sentiasa doakan the best untuk kau Ira.

Thank you best friend, thank you sister.

Alhamdulillah Allah temukan kau dengan aku.

Best wishes, Danisha Soraya <3

5NILAM 2010 :')

2011-05-13T12:30:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt, harini idea mencurah curah laa blogspot tak boleh nak bukak, dengan berat hati, tutup laptop, sambung buat house chores, takpe blogspot, i forgive you.

I'll be facing university life soon enough and after that work and building a family maybe, and the season that all teenagers had been facing, the one which looks very important that is high school will remain a history, one that will be forgotten by time, so i choose to write about one of the most important thing that shaped me ready for my examinations, my very own 5 NILAM, because maybe 20 years from now, all the little details which i can say it out loud maybe a difficult thing to remember.So here it goes,

So there goes classmates saya yg superb superb semua, each of them had a different character yg membuatkan class hari2 sangatlah unique, special, gempak, happening, fun, exciting and macam2 lagi,
Masuk je class korang akan nampak TOT yg semua pink tuu bergossip dengan JIEA yg macam baik padahal..........., hahahaha, then MANZA yg sangat2 menarik rambut dia, BU the kuat tidur guy, and CAP LAN si kecik tuh, MAAN yg pandai addmath n USTAZ( hehe ).second row ada LEM si pkt berkaliber yg suka lupa buku class, FEI mt yg cenonet tuh, SAI anak emas ustazah Sabibah, BENG yg blur, OD the crazy monkey, NAS kt yg kepala 90 degree tido and RAOF yg saling tak tumpah macam Mahatma Ghandi, then moving on to third row, PIKA yg kiut miut tu, IKA the tall tall girl, DAN (yg paling comel), JA yun, JIJOT sarawak, MER budak straight A'S class and EPUL pemain badminton kebangsaan, and then last row, KAKAK yg extra pembersih and EYQIN si blur princess tuh.

Sebenarnya classmate saya semua gempak2 belaka, memang best lah belajar dengan mereka2 ini sebab kami memang kuat belajar and kuat tidur! hehehe time class saat paling best,

Class BM bersama PN HASNAH sebab cikgu mmg suka becerita, ditambah dengan suara cikgu yg lemah gemalai mmg mengulit kitaorg satu class.
Class BI dengan MISS AYU mmg happening, tapayah cerita lebih2, dapat makanan semua pun happy.
Class MATH dengan CIKGU MAI semua pun nak habiskan worksheet cepat2 sebab selagi tak siap tak boleh balik! hehehehehe
Class AGAMA dgn USTAZAH SABIBAH paling on top, belajar bab nikah semua gelak gila, bila bab hafazan semua mati kutu. :D
Class SEJARAH dengan CIKGU ARIDAH, pasang cd dekat bilik kuliah, mata pejam.
Class ADD MATH dengan CIKGU WAN pulak, sibuk buat kuiz, siapa salah lari pusing blok. :')
Class Chemistry dengan CIKGU ELEY semua pening lalat hafal nama2 chemical and equations.
Class PHYSICS dengan TEACHER YATI dekat lab, masing2 concentrate nak buat report.
Class BIOLOGY dengan MISS AIDA, belajar reproduction and segala bagai, hehehe

Kul 6.30 pagi je, class 5 NILAM mesti dah kecoh dengan warga2 5 NILAM yg memang suka datang study awal2,macam2 kami buat dekat class, tak terhitung seronoknya,

If i could jot down every single little details, trust me i would, but the truth is, you guys cheer me up, keep me going, had my faith high up in the air and made me proud. I know its gonna be beyond impossible to gather all of us again in one small tiny room, studying like there's no tomorrow, each of us got our own separate ways, life to be built, new people to meet, dreams to catch up on, but i will never forget how you guys had made a seventeen years old Danisha Soraya happy, what you guys had teach me, its priceless.

We'll meet again being somebody big, a doctor, a lawyer, an engineer, an architect, performer maybe, whichever that will be, we were all once the same, so young with high spirit, big dreams and bright future.Don't give up on life my fellow classmates, be a fighter!

THANK YOU FOR MAKING MY DAYS THERE WORTH EVERY SECOND OF IT.

University Fever

2011-05-12T08:50:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt, may Allah bless you, first thing first, thanks arr blogspot, penat aku menaip, autosave tara, nk publish post tak dapat, bengkak hati aku kena tutup laptop yg dah penuh dengan nukilan nukilan terbaik seorang Danisha. Takpe, biarlah benda dah nak jadi aite mates?

Blablablabla, skip details semua, the other day, i checked my UPU result and Alhamdulillah Danisha Soraya Binti Shaiful Bahri berjaya masuk Asasi Sains di Puncak Alam, so time tuh i am on cloud nine sebab tak dapat UIA (yg nii jahat) haha and i was even more excited knowing that my kawan baik SHARMIMI RAZAK tuuu dapat satu course, wahhh memang bestlah aku hari hari beronggeng dengan mimie ni, Ops silap, BELAJAR,

(sorry, i've tried uploading gambar dia tapi komputer ni degil tak nak download gambar sharmimi tuh)

So its a new phase in life, i'm wondering how's campus life is going to be like, as abg said.

"Hidup dekat universiti adalah benda terbest time belajar"

I hope so, and i won't repeat my mistake of giving up too early, i'm promising myself :-

*To study harder and pushing harder

*To not care less on what people is going to say

*To enjoy my campus life

*To make new friend and mingle around some more

So far yg ini my main priority, lets all hope for the best.And for those who are unlucky tak dapat masuk uni, ingatla yg rezeki kan ada di mana-mana, tak perlu risau ye peeps. :)

Teenage Love Affair

2011-05-03T21:45:00.000-07:00

I'm currently listening to say anything- A walk through hell
It sounds amazing :0

Yesterday i went to watch Red Riding Hood with Abang at Sunway
On the way there he asked me, "Adik, siapa boyfriend adik now?"
I immediately feel the burning sensation on my cheek, redden by time,
Its not that i am ashamed or anything, the truth is, i don't have an answer for that question
You see, i thought i am with someone, but i just couldn't get it out of my mouth
My answer is, "Entahlaaaa,"
Then Abang said, "Gimme a name of a guy yang you rapat,"
And once again, i failed terribly to answer that one
And i just heaved out a sigh,

I am currently struck with millions of mixed emotions in my heart, it may sound cliche and boring but being a teenager, the anxiety of exploring the L.O.V.E. words. yes, the LOVE feeling. I wish i could be numb enough our loud enough, so that i couldn't feel a thing or aren't afraid to voice out my feelings, sadly i am not both.

I envy those who could freely put their relationship on public, let say in Facebook, where they would post their love towards each other, i am not like that, i don't express my feelings in public, i had family members, uncles and aunts that i need to put a gap in between my love life, and also half of the people in my Facebook are not my real friends, so why should i tell them my love life, its not that i'm saying posting your love life in Facebook is a bad stuff, it is just not for me.

Forever is an utter BULLSHIT, thats what i conclude, saying "i'll love you and i'll stay with you forever," is not going to happen, you'll find somebody better, fall in love again and say the same things, "i promise you are my everything," is soooooooo fake, I had once been there and all i can say is saying I LOVE YOU sounds so cheap nowdays, as if you can actually say it without really meaning it.

I had only been a couple a few times, and all of them had a new girl now, i didn't feel a pang of jealousy to the new girls, its because, HE is once mine, my recycled items now is your everything, boo hoo, i cared for me ex's not that i had many of them, trust me, i had less then 4, i am certain that i am not a player, even if you labelled me as one, i couldn't care less, there is always something about boys/men that they want from you, and i've read somewhere that getting back with your ex is like taking a shower and putting on the same underwear.

I am not saying every boy friend of mine take me for granted, but behind those smiles are lies and a good act, something that i had to offer for them, i'm sick and tired of hearing "i miss you," yet, we are just friends, scandals trying to deny their feelings, maybe i'm tired of trying, i thought i could finally settle down with ONE guy but i could not, my hearts cries for the one i could not have, and i'm DYING inside, why do i have to be so mean? why do i need to have somebody i could not? why do i have to be called a boyfriend stealer? These things aren't me, i just want to be happy.

To those boys who once made me happy, thank you, i smiled and laugh a little harder because of you, i learn to grow up feeling like a princess, to realize how hard sticking up to the one, being through hell together.How i now how love is. I enjoyed my teenage love life, the feeling of only HIM mean the world to you, and now, i'm moving on to the bigger things in life, of discovering who am i within, let love flows by itself.

I promise myself to not cry over another guy, or another breakup, to not love so easily, to not be so cheap and vulnerable, to love unconditionally when time comes, to not have to be called a boyfriend stealer, to not be choosy, to not have to break up a friendship over boys, to just enjoy love as it is, and the most important thing is, to be happy once again.

2011-05-03T20:10:00.000-07:00

Ahoyy peeps, forgive me for the lack of post these few says, i've been busy doing stuff and i thought i'll post something but there are too many things running through my mind that i decided to write about none and yes if you ask, keeping it to myself had made me a little nuts about it, I'M WARNING YOU, THIS POST MIGHT BE A LITTLE CRAPPY, as i have thousands of things running crazily in my head.

I had been stalking or should i say running a deep investigations on blogs that attract me now and then and i'm stunned by the level of writings these young blogger produced.They had an absolutely high English level, compared to mine, i'm a typical one, maybe on a scale from 1 to 10 mine would be rated as a 4 or worse, 2.But the whole point of me mumbling my thought is to improve my writing and typing skills so i just forgive myself for that.I also HATE the way i speak in English nowdays as it had not been fluent and it had worsen, i heard myself talking poor rojak language and tend to mutter out words that i hardly use. (Sigh) -__-

Oh for your information, (if you bother to know) i had passed my JPJ test which is a huge relief for me because honestly, i hate going to the driving school, i am proud of myself because i had passed it, a big success for me since i am not the crazy about driving type of teenager, i just took it for the sake of me being able to go anywhere myself, independently.Maybe i am not that confident to drive in Kuala Lumpur but Abang's going to train me through and through so that i would be an excellent driver and lets pray that i avoid any accident.

My lack of ability to save money had made me a poor poor teenager who desperately need some Ringgit Malaysia, i didn't feel like asking Daddy for some money although i had been doing him some work, i just thought to myself, "hey, lets cut the old man's burden, don't ask him for money," so i had been literally blinding myself past the crazy sales and rows of clothes that was lining ready for me to purchase them.I even spent less time hanging out with my friends or even watching movies.

Every now and then, i found work heaping in front of me, I had to settle a few things which i am so sorry i couldn't tell you guys what is it.I will sigh a great relief once my work is done, not to mention that i am currently the *bibik in the house, the laundry and dishes are my responsibility.

*I had finally chosen a topic to ACTUALLY write about, will meet you in another post!
CHEERS!!

Maharaja Lawak Minggu-3 Part-9 Sepah

2011-04-23T21:40:00.000-07:00

Ohmaigod i LOL-ed :D

30 days to a healthier Danisha Soraya

2011-04-11T07:40:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.
First thing first, sorry for all the typos from my previous post, i am a normal human being who tend to do countless mistakes.

Okay now we are done with that, lets all focus on my topic, 30 days to a healthier Danisha Soraya.The main reason why i write this post is to announce that i am starting a health plan for the sake of my body.This is because i've gained 2 kilograms thanks to my eat all you can plans.I have to admit that finishing school and nothing to worry about also contribute to my weight gain.

Now ladies and gentlemen, lets do an exercise with me.Go on now, pinch your cheek and feel the amounts of fats that you can actually pinch, then put your hands up in the air and wave them like you just don't care,see the flabby fats under your arms waving back to you, next, sit down lazily and count the amount of tyres sticking out from your stomach, and don't forget the fats at you buttocks and your thigh.Don't you just wish for it to go away so you could show off your model like flat stomach to your envious friends?I do.Hihi

Now that we are over with our "exercise", lets just sit down and ponder like this, "Danisha, takkn nak biar badan kau gemuk cam org dah beranak dua?Nanti orang pun lari'" but use your name instead of mine okay love?

I've made a couple of eating plans and also some simple exercise that you lazy bum bum can follow.

Plan A
This one is really simple.You just have to cut out the intake of carbohydrate in your diet, this is by eating one plate of small serving rice once in two days, kira selang sehari lah kalau nak senang kan, this one is less unlikely to happen if you dan't have strong willing to diet.The menu should be something like this

Breakfast-A bowl of cereal/a glass of nestum or any oat/ fruits and yoghurt drink

Lunch-A small portion of rice, a lot of veggies, fish is preferable than chicken or meat

Dinner-A glass of hot milo without the condensed milk and 2 piece of bread (wholemeal is better)

Then on the next day you have to avoid rice by eating maybe bread or something else that can keep you energize.

Plan B

Breakfast-A bowl of cereal/A couple of toast/some kuih muih Malaysia

Lunch-Small portion of rice and the lauk lauk as usual

Dinner-Bread or wholemeal biscuit

This one is less strict than plan A.Don't get me wrong, that is just an example of what you can eat, you can have fun and add a little twist to your diet.The simple trick is to cut on carbs intake.

Then you have to do 20 minutes exercise before going to sleep and after waking up.Read magazines for the right exercise for your body okay?There is also jogging every 6 pm okay lovely?

I am hoping i can stick to this plan and i hope you do too.Just take care of your body and feel great about it.

When schooling years end

2011-04-10T03:36:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt people?How's life going?(yes i do wish for all of you to answer that).So i've been crucially worried sick of how i spent my free time now that my schooling years have come to an end and i am sure majority of you are still wondering what is the best activities that you can do.So here i am writing millions (over ) of fun filled activities to kill boredom

*Bm lah pulak ye.

Ambik masa untuk RELAX

Haa yang ini aku rasa semua budak2 yang baru habis SPM macam aku pun setuju.Lepas setahun bertarung nyawa memerah otak membaca buku2 teks dan nota-nota agama, sejarah, komsas, menghafal biologi, mengira-ngira matematik dan menghafal semua nama nama bahan kimia, aku rasa lepas habis sekolah ini time perfect untuk korang berehat.Buat apa yang korang dah lama nak buat iaitu tak lain tak bukan, tidur.(alah maca aku tak tahu yang korang memeng suka hal2 tidur ni).Bak kata orang, take your time to catch up with your sleep.Go on now!

Kalau rajin, cari KERJA

Yang ini untuk insan insan terpilih yang tahu perit jerih parents dia bagi makan minum semua sampai besar badan, tak salah rasanya kalau kita nak tahu feeling bekerja tuh kan.Time ni korang cuba sara hidup sendiri dengan duit gaji yang korang dapat tuh, eh takdelah sampai menyewa rumah sendiri tapi if korang nak hangout ke haaa gunalah gaji korang tu.Hal kerja apa yang korang boleh buat takde hal sebab biasanya bnyk orang memeang nak cari bdk2 mcm kita kerja, just korang kena pandai pilih tempat and kerja and antara yang aku rasa sesuai,

Cashier mana mana supermarket, hypermarket atau kedai(bookstore ke)
Waiter kedai makan
Office boy kalau dah ada lesen
Babysitter tak pun cikgu tadika
Guru tuisyen tak bertauliah
Sales promoter kat kedai best2 mcm Bonia tak pun Quiksilver
Bakery shop

That's about some of the things yang aku fikir cool nak buat tapi if korang ada benda lg cool and happening haa bolehla korang buat.

Go on a vacation

If korang banyak sangat duit and wondering nak buat apa, apa kata pergi je vacation kat mana-mana dream place korang, it can be Paris, Milan, London, Scotland, Korea, United State atau dalam Malaysia yang tercinta.And cuba korang twist vacation and instead of going with family, apa kata korang rancang dengan kawan kawan korang trip ke mana mana.Kumpul duit and pergi berkelah dekat PD, jungle trekking dalam hutan, berkayak, camping dekat Janda Baik, main seharian dekat Genting or Sunway Lagoon, surfing dekat laut, scuba diving.Cara nih maybe lebih seronok pergi dengan member yang korang ngam and senang nak kira.I'm sure you are going to have lots of fun.

Driving license

Driving license sangatlah penting sebab korang akan grow up and bekerja and if korang takde lesen mcm mana nak memudahkan korang kn.Cepat2 daftar amik lesen so ramai ramai boleh drift secara halal.hihi

Take care of yourself

Take two seconds and have a look in the mirror.Like it? Good for you,and if you don't, do something about it.Perasan tak how your hair splits and kusut masai, all the pimples and blackhead and whitehead and freckles and look at your body.Do have a haircut.Banyak kedai sekarang offer trim, cut, perm, wash, dengan harga yang murah.Cuba try rebondingkan rambut or buat hot curls, then if nk mencabar lagi, buat light highlight tapi untuk perempuan lah, its for your own pleasure.Then pergi buat facial takpun susah2 buat je facial sendiri.Pergi dapur ambik segala jenis buah and blend dan campur ngan madu, mask dia korang pakai, confirm best!

Korang juga seharusnya jaga badan dengan cara exercise yang berterusan.Jangan biar badan naik, nanti jeans tak muat baru menangis!

Dear boyfriend :)

2011-04-09T00:16:00.000-07:00

Hey boy, huh it takes more than a whole 5 minutes to write how to greet you. Boy, you do know that i love you so much, There is no possible ways of saying i love you or describing it unless you feel the same way too and i hope you do. It have been an awesome new life with you, a whole 360 degree turns of how i look in life and what to expect in many days to come. Thanks for being there for me when all else fails, keeping me warm days and night with your existence.

Boy, i might act like a total bitch sometimes to you, without saying the real reasons, blaming you on everything and anything.I might say i dislike your jeans or tees or your new haircut or your attitude or even your pals but i stay true, and you should do the same.You should say when you dislike my shawl, my new perfume,my amazingly unbelievable 6 inch pumps, my haircuts, the way i dress or anything that annoys you because being in a relationship ain't a perfectoo. Its not always rainbows and butterflies.

Boy, i have to admit that i am damn jealous when you talk to other girls, do not be close with them, do not build a so called professional relationship based on works and stuff, do not wink, smile, greet or even look at them, in plain simple language, don't realize other girl's existence please.

Boy, i do not wish to be your everything but i want to be your best part.The one when you had the shittiest day of your life yet you can still smile when you see me.I wish i could be your backbone, supporting you through all, comes hell or high water.

Please stay with me :)

*this is just a little spill of my feelings..muah muah
weh asal post nih romantik nih? -_-

2011-03-28T20:46:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt peeps,
How you guys had been doing lately? Please answer that one.
As i was thinking of a new post to write, i came out about stripping the whole truth.

First thing first, don't read this if you don't feel like you wanna know me.
I'm warning you, this post might be a little personal and a lot of things is about to be discovered.
My name is Danisha Soraya Binti Shaiful Bahri.
Don't ask me why danisha coz i also don't know and at times i hate my name.
But sometimes i love the uniqueness of it.
I was born on October 22 1993 so do the math about my age and etc.

I am insecure all the time. I don't like having all eyes on me.
I am not a wild child as i prefer staying at home.
I don't do make-ups and i don't know how to dress in style.
I don't have a lot of friends i can count on.
I am not the famous type who everyone know about and talk about.

I have a family, not a perfect one but a nice, supporting one.
Yes its true that sometimes i may not get along with my family so much but nevertheless, i still love them, no doubt about that.
I might seem to likely ripped my siblings off their faces and throw them in the river or something,
But when it come down to whom i love and adore, its gonna be them straight away.
I am not the sister of the year type but i'll try my best in being one.

I hate animals and i do not wish of having one.
I love to shop but that all depends on my financial status.
I hate cheesy person. Don't get me wrong, boleh je kau nk jadi cheesy tp jangan tahap leleh.
I like buying everything in the mall. The more the better. (Ya Allah yg ini bila nk berubah)

I have to say that i hate a lot of people.
I feel like bombing half or more than half of people in the school.
When i said i love a friend, I love them.
I might get emotional when it comes to friends drama and whichever thing revolving friends.
I am unlikely the one who would wait for people to be friends with me.
The closer someone is to me, the more they mean the world to me.

I don't wished to be loved by EVERYONE but to certain someone.
When i said leave me alone, I damn meant it.
I hate saying goodbye but i'll do it if its for the best.
I might change my attitude in 5 seconds flat.
My behavior depend on who am i with.

*its the end of part one :)

2011-03-25T22:33:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum wbt people.
This had been a rather tiring week for me.,macam macam jadi dengan result yg baru keluar, QTI kereta, tok ma sakit, scholarship application lah, waa tak sangka Danisha Soraya dah besar, mcm2 nak kena buat sendiri, takpe kita selalu kena upgrade hidup and belajar benda baru kan?

So semalam aku pergi QTI test kat metro. Sumpah teruk sangat my test tapi asal weh boleh lulus? haha Thanks cikgu yg bagi lulus tuh. Kalau aku jadi cikgu tuh dah lama aku bg fail. Hmm maybe sebab aku slh bnd yg boleh dimaafkan. Apa apa pun Alhamdulillah itu kan rezeki namanya.

Suprising sikit yang even result aku cam tak berapa nak menarik, I can handle it. Seriously lesson mcm ni buat aku tahu erti kesyukuran, betapa selama ni Allah syg dekat aku even kadang2 aku lupa dekat Dia, lupa nak tunjuk aku bersyukur atas nikmat yang Dia pinjamkan.What's best now is jangan give up and try dptkan success yg seterusnya..Wargghhhhhhh (bunyi semangat)

Ya Allah just received the news, tok ma is in a very bad situation. Kena blk ganu nih. Pray for tok ma please guys :/

tehee

2011-03-23T18:24:00.000-07:00

So you came looking for me??
Aww thats too sweet :')

P/s:Yeay result kita sama kan?
:D

because heart tells no lie

2011-03-23T06:09:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

Today on 23rd march 11 i have faced one of the life's reality

My spm result

Lets cut the chase and be straight forward this time

Bm-A+
Bi-A
Math-A+
Sej-A+
Ag-A+
Add math-B+
Physics-B+
Chem-A-
Bio-A

So that's my result.Alhamdulillah walau tak straight tapi its pretty good.

Perit mmg perit nk telan.The fact is i did not do well in my SPM

But thanks guys for the motivation,the congratulations and all the nice words.

Sedih jugak because i never get any B in my big examination

I went to hug aisyah and cried and cried

Then i said to myself, stop danisha.

I went to pick myself up,congratulate those who did well

Aisya,fie,nina you guys are awesome(straight tuh)

Nor babe you too

Ira and jiea whoa gempak girls

And i am extremely proud of my batch.

Alhamdulillah we manage to break the school's record.

When reality slaps you hard in the face.

I look calm outside but its pretty cloudy and rainy and stormy in the inside.

The fact is, 7 A's is 7A's.

No matter how good the other two B's are, it is still 7A.

Not more, not less.

Uncle ja'a couldn't help me get any scholarship to go oversea.

Ank uncle awie pulak straight A's.

Aduh malu mana nak ltk muka.

Lesson well learnt,

Kita tak selalu dkt atas.

Sometimes kita perlu jatuh utk tahu betapa manisnya kejayaan.

Dan bila kita di bwh, kita kena usaha untuk naik.

Just because your past is a failure doesn't mean your future is.

Thanks everyone for you love and support,

Nor's text to me:Dan,chill babe.Lucky result aku lps khazanah!Huh. Eh mak aku dr td puji kau. Dye ckp 7 tuh okay kot. Da boley ambik medic. Dia suroh kau belaja elok2 pasni, jd doc. Doctor Danisha!

Babe,sumpah terharu.Thanks for always believing in me!

I won't look back and regret my school years

Coz honey, i really don't.I enjoyed it a lot.

I'm going to start planning my life ahead.

Push the painful memory ahead and keep smiling.

Allah doesn't always give you what you want but what you need

Alhamdulillah, Allah woke me up from this long slumber and made me realize,

A little effort isn't enough.

*trying to find inner strength.And thanks for those who really care.

Alhamdulillah

This is just the beginning!

22 march 11

2011-03-23T03:05:00.000-07:00

*this is yesterday

I can feel my heartbeat pumping louder and louder every microsecond

Every moment feels like eternity

Glancing at the clock from time to time

Trying my best to keep my sanity

Crying softly while praying hard

Slowly whispering my thoughts and concerns to the Almighty

Desperately finding an escape from a wall

That i built in me

-.-'

A Rocket To The Moon: Like We Used To [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

2011-03-19T22:44:00.000-07:00

This a song by rocket to the moon
I just love it so i hope you will too ye?ye ye ye?

2011-03-18T21:03:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps.How have you been doing lately?I got so many words to say but i think better yet that i keep it a little to myself.

If i die young, who would cry hard?Who would wish they had been better to me instead of being an asshole.Who would laugh their ass off and say "serve that bitch!".Who would come to my funeral and pay their last respect to me?Who would say that i have been a great person?Who would really care?Who would say they can't go through life without me?

I was thinking, my existence, did it make any different in someone life? Did anyone really love me with all my life?Would anyone die of me?Did i bring joy and laughter to anyone's life?

I have been enjoying my life.I realised that YOU have to be your own hero.Because in the end of the day,there is no one who is capable of helping you.You have to fight your own battle.Being kicked, punched, punk'd, slapped, insulted, scolded, you are the one who have to get up,pick your spirit up and MOVE ON.

For the past seventeen years of my life, i have struggled and try my hardest and it came to my senses that i have to smile and move on for whatever shit that happened.

Whatever you do guys,NEVER GIVE UP. (:

2011-03-18T08:54:00.000-07:00

Hey there..I'm facing some problem these couple of days.Hmm lets just talk about that in another post or something.I noticed lately that all my clothes including my jeans and my favourite tees had been rather skin tight with me which only can indicate ONE thing, YES i begin gaining weight.That had been my biggest fear so far.Thinking that i am currently a PENGANGGUR terhormat, i could not blame anything else other that myself.

It annoys me that i turn out being this monster which i barely even knew about.My body had been rejecting the concept of dieting and exercising.My sister referred to me as a couch potato. I barely get off from the comfort of the sofa and the warmth of it.Haaa.

And did i mention that acne suddenly started to grow like parasite on my face.Gosh i hate it.I hate seeing my flaws and my imperfectness. I am worrying about my body and i need to jog again.I need to run for a little while and get some sweat out.Refreshed and feeling brand new.I am praying that this is not just a one day spirit.Please Danisha Soraya.

There is indeed a few works needed to be done in order to get back in shape.I just have to work on it (:

2011-03-15T09:56:00.000-07:00

I was scrolling through fb and tumblr like tah apa2

Baby: kakak you know blablablathisblablablathatblablablaandthenblablabla

Me: uh'ha

Baby: Oh shit fuck!

Me: Hey!Watch your language young lady(marah)

Baby: So i guessed it that the only way to get your attention is by cursing..hihi

-.-'

2011-03-12T19:34:00.000-08:00

Keeping it cool and pretend like nothing happened.Yeah i like that idea lah kut.

I feel like i have been missing out lately.With all the wars and protest and Tsunami.Its a total chaos out there yet i feel so lame and unconnected to the world.I've skipped reading any newspaper and only chose to know new stuff by reading tumblr and etc.Technology,couldn't blame on it though.

A few days ago i went to mak's house and entah mcm mana boleh pinjam buku dia.I then realised that i did what i love most less now days that is reading.So i am currently trying to work my brain out by reading and hopefully improve my English skills which has been a disaster lately.

Results will be out in a week or so but i still doesn't have a clue what i'll be getting.Please let it be more than 7 A's or something.Mom and dad are really getting excited about it and it freaks me out a lot.I couldn't bear to disappoint them.Anyway i'll pray for the best

Currently my heart has been hurt by a series of thing happening that people would not understand or in plain simple language, i'm being damn emotional about everything.But hey, a heart could not lie right.I hope i'll recover soon :)

2011-03-12T01:38:00.000-08:00

Expect not more in love life because if u did, u'll get hurt and it sucks..The i think some of the worst feelings in life is if you're second to the people you put first, knowing he/she didn't like you the way you do, getting rejections over and over again and feeling you are not good enough for anyone, or even worst, no one is a perfect match for you..

Yeah laugh your ass out if u want..what does a girl of my age now about love and trying to talk and post pulak kn..but this is some of MY feelings and yes, i love to share it with someone..maybe out there somewhere there is a special someone for me.maybe i just haven't met him..

I am sick and tired of trying to act sunny all around when i am lonely deep down..seeing lovebirds fill my eyes with tears as i try to picture me someday being that happy..

*Danisha, sedar tak kau yg sebenarnya tak syukur dengan insan2 depan mata kaw..please grow up.. -.-

Bruno Mars - Marry You LYRICS

2011-03-12T00:58:00.000-08:00

2011-03-12T00:18:00.000-08:00

Salam..waaa dah lama tak update blog and harini apekejadah tiba2 nk update pulak dah..hmm anyway i was thinking what to write and suddenly teringat at aisya..gosh i miss her like gila vavi kut..suffer aku dia pergi PLKN tapi dh nama pun wajib kn..ikut ajelah :)

So she has been a great friend to me since i first stepped into kusess..Ingat lagi muka bulat tuh..kitaorg main pinjam2 pemadam..Tak sangka pulak jadi kawan baik ..Maybe ada yg wondering asallah aku syg sgt kt scya..well to tell you the truth she is one in a million and she is close to perfection..

Siapa tak suka kn kwn bdk cute cm ape je dia nih,baik and the best part is she is damn hardworking..And dia nih sikit punya baik..semayang tak tinggal..i could really fall in love hard with her..hehe..ignore that okay..

Its just that she gets me the way others couldn't reach through me..kengkadang tapayah ckp lebih2 pun dia dh faham..she totally understand me even without me trying to tell her..she had faith in me when others couldn't even bear to look me in the eyes..she had been the best of friends..yeah mmg kitaorg gaduh over silly things but itu yg buat i understand that i need her more than anyone else.

Alhamdulillah kitaorg dh buat promise to be great friend until jadi nenek pun apa aku kisah kn..I'll rock the world and turn it upside down with you ainnur aisyah lahmudin..

Haih

2011-02-05T05:04:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum
So tomorrow is sunday aka hari everybody balik
wooo sumpah sangat2 sedih

So i texted Aisya and gahh rinduu sgt..
Planning on visiting her at plkn tapi mcm mana eyh
she's at perak man
bapak jaohhhhh

tolong lah dapat
Crossing fingers

-.-

2011-01-29T06:43:00.000-08:00

Tonight i feel like blogging

No title please :D

2011-01-29T06:32:00.000-08:00

I love you

I love you like bonnie and Clyde

Romeo and Juliet

Peanut better and jelly

Babies and milk

Girls and shopping

Glad to know you feel the same

I've made the silly mistake of letting you go once

And sure as hell i couldn't afford seeing you with somebody else

*sorry that the perumpamaan was a little off the page

haha

PLKN :D

2011-01-21T23:01:00.000-08:00

So harituh sunday yg bosan..then maw text asking nk pegy melawat mimi takat Princess Haliza so i texted Wanie and dye memang lah nk pegy

So pendekkn cerita we went there..me,wanie,maw and amirul(mimi's) haha
maw amik kt rumah which is so sweet of him..ngeh ngeh
penat kut baca doa takut pape jadi..new driver..can't trust them much..haha
then meredah jalan..me and wanie talked all the way...heeee
then dah sampai area sepang we were confused a lil..yela kn bkn kg kite kt sane..

Alhamdulillah sampai jugak sana..we parked and with smiling faces masuk gate

The plkn-ers: Melawat siapa
Maw: kawan
The plkn-ers: Errr act kawan tak bley melawat
Maw:Nih cousin dia(pointing towards Amirul)
The plkn-ers:okay then.....

So meet Mimi and Syatrah and kwn2 dyeorg which i didn't remember nama sorang2

Lepak2 at Gazebo and they snapped a few picture
Awkward moment jugak lah sometimes.

Talked and talked and talked until kena halau
so said gdbye to them

Then,

lelaki garang: Wirawati!!!!!!wirawati!!!! sini kamu,

we were like freaked out and cepat2 lari keluar sbb afraid dyeorg kena marah en
we were there for more than 20 mins pass time melawat

haha sorry guys
we had fun i guess

:D

Danisha :D

2011-01-08T23:02:00.001-08:00

So i was bored
I flickr-ed my name
*which is stupid act okay
and this cute baby has the same name as i am
its weird seeing so many danisha

-.-

random

2011-01-08T22:56:00.000-08:00

Random fact num 1
I love chocolate
I crave chocolate :D

Damn

2010-12-28T23:03:00.000-08:00

Damn I hate seeing you smile

-.-

It hurts

2010-12-28T03:55:00.000-08:00

It hurts when i say i hate you

It hurts when my friend don't care

It hurts when i was left all alone

It hurts that everyone have to leave

It hurts that there's no more you and me

It hurts when she is better than me

It hurts that you lie to me

It hurts that the world doesn't goes the way you wanted it to

It hurts that schooling has to come to an end

It hurts when all i see is the past

It hurts that i couldn't move forward

It hurts that i'm not so religious

It hurts when i make a mistake

It hurts to be wrong all the time

It hurts when i gained a couple of pounds

It hurts that i still failed

It hurts that i am silly and dork

It hurts when you see her instead of me

It hurts when i had a fight over a guy

It hurts that your better off without me

It hurts that nanny love her more than she loves me

It hurts that guess handbags had to be so expensive

It hurts when i see our old picture

It hurts seeing you moving on

It hurts that i cannot be the best

It hurts that my hair is messy all the time

It hurts that i am bad in dressing

It hurts that i am too lazy to jog

It hurts that my siblings are way better

It hurts that chocolate taste so good

It hurts that i had no money left

It hurts to be somebody else

It hurts that i tried to fit in

It hurts that you wont talk to me anymore

It hurts that bonnie and clyde had to die

It hurts that 17 is coming to an end

It hurts that i am too afraid

It hurts when i made those stupid and silly mistakes

It hurts that i can't go out and see you

It hurts that i didn't got the chance to say i'm sorry

It hurts that you weren't my guardian angel

It hurts that i had to move on

It hurts being so weak and vulnerable

It hurts to hate life

closing my eyes

I thanked Allah for all the things He did and didn't gave me

it shaped me to become who i am

I'll always be the same

I am Danisha Soraya

2010-12-28T03:51:00.000-08:00

I got this from the internet

it may sound silly and yucky and stuff but i am deeply true bout this

UR not the first guy Ive ever kissed but ur the only 1 to kiss me & make me melt UR not the first guy Ive ever wanted but ur the only 1 Ive ever needed & UR not the first guy I've ever said I love u too but ur the only 1 Ive ever meant it to

where are you??

2010-12-19T07:06:00.000-08:00

I miss you

I really do

ever since i was little

thanks to fairy tales

*curse you fairy tales

I dream of having a perfect prince

A perfect hunk

the one who i can devote my love to

the one i can cherish my life with

I never see you as a friend

or more than that

my lover

but you made me feel real

I feel like living

Remember when we used to talk all night long

despite schooling sessions the next day,

You always make me feel like a princess

But you slowly went away

Bit by bit you fade away

The more i try to hold you the faster you went away

Come back please

I really really really miss you

I miss US

Forgive me

Disconnected to school

2010-12-19T06:41:00.000-08:00

hello people

its been a long time since i last post something

I miss writing but never have the suitable time to write

I officially finished my schooling years

that means no more school uniform and everything

no more homework

no more school gossips

no more canteen

no more dining hall

no more hostel life

its unexpected that school began so fast and ended in a nick of time

I always hate waking up in the morning

i'm not a morning person

hahaha

And now since spm is over

I really don't have a clue,

nk kerja kea people??

2010-10-02T20:37:00.000-07:00

its only once

and i'm gonna ace the test

i'm not sure how

but i'll figure it out

one way or another

2010-10-02T20:18:00.000-07:00

what high school really teaches me is to be punk'd and to punk'd back

like real hard!

face the fact

heee

2010-09-04T11:05:00.000-07:00

well i'm back fr hari raya
and i went raya shopping with the rest of the family
and i got a pair of jeans and a dress
at zara!
thanks mom and dad
ur the best!
ly

clogged

2010-08-26T19:26:00.000-07:00

okay finally exam's over
not that it means spm's over since its not
its just another 'great' trial
and when i say great
i meant NOT

exams have to be responsible for my behavior now
i am turning into a green monster
its like if budak langgar sikit pun i cam fucked up gila
marah

sish sish
i hate being this monster
please God
help me out somehow
and fyi
i sucks in my trial

better luck next time!

BOY

2010-06-11T04:20:00.000-07:00

i know that your hurt by my action kn?
kn3?
i know u like how i know myself
in fact i know u better than i knew myself

i've told u like a million time that i love you
i am confused
u pun ckp kn i neyh pelik
okay lets clear it out
i hate relationship because it has to have an ending
either its sooner or later
i like it just the way we are

even though i get mixed feeling sometime
one day i woke up loving u like hell and missing you like crazy
and the other day i feel like i wanna be alone
i am a typical normal human being sayang
i can't promise that i will never change
and i don't always miss you

you are such a great boy that had been by my side
through thick and thin
rain or shine
for better or for worse

sayang,
this is life
you cherish it while you can
never to be afraid of losing it
and if you do
you can't have the slightest regret
because you was happy once
its just that it doesn't belong to you

only He know what the best for you
its beyond our power
way pass our limitation

as much as i want to tell you
that i'll always be by your side
and to always love you
and to never have mixed feelings
i just can't

because it hurts when you can't fulfill it
to ur loved one

sayang

i am sorry if i am never too good for you
but just so you know
you are one of the best damn thing that happened to me
and i cherished it a lot
and i thanked Him

i am not afraid of losing you
because only He know whats best for us

forgive me for all my mistakes
as i am only a weak human being

-.-

tsk tsk tsk

2010-06-11T02:34:00.000-07:00

literally i don't have any amazing story to tell you guys
hmm
i am confused
between like and need and want and so much more
this feeling mixed up all in one
like a chocolate stain that won't go away
i am not sure how long can i play this love story
or what i'm gonna do in the end
what do you think?

why do all the things have to involve love?
-.-

i feel like blogging

2010-06-11T01:32:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum
ececey hehe

i think it has been ages since i wrote.
i miss writing
i like my little space
where dreams are never wrong
right?
so i'm gonna write lots and lots of things
enjoy!

Its not a curse

2010-06-08T09:45:00.000-07:00

Wallet is not a curse
thats the first thing that people should put in mind
its cool to give ur love a wallet right?
then why people are so afraid to do so?
stop believing in shits
i did
and i feel stupid
i'm sorry
-.-

My seventeen

2010-04-09T02:54:00.001-07:00

hey there
The name is danisha soraya shaiful bahri
Its the 22nd of oct 93 i started breathing
I have the best family anyone could have
I am blessed with amazing people around me
Currently staying in a boarding school
I'm not that pretty
I'm just a typical 46 kg and 158 cm girl
I freak out a lot
I try to look cool in front of other people
I am almost a perfectionist
I have goals and ambitions in life

And sadly,that haunts me a lot
I am afraid of mistakes
I hate it if people laugh at me
I try hard to be like anyone else
And i try really really hard
And i am tired of it

Ok2 here goes,hrituh kn first term exam right??and it was okay,i was really frustrated with my result sbb some of my classmates scored higher than i do.And it really freaked me out that some of them were really improving.Its not that i x syukur ngan that result,syukur sgt2 tpi i nk lbey,fhm kn??rse bsalah yg amat2 sgt ble tngk muke mom and dad,what happened to me??
So hrituh,(just days before hockey tournament) i jtuh sket,truk lah jgak,plus i homesick,hehe..Pegy check clinic and doc suspected denggi!whoa tkut kn??So i dpt blek!(I'll tell my sakit2 punye hal later jela kn??)So i dpt this long long cuti!!!whoah!ngeh ngeh
And ddk rmah sorng2 made me think of my upcoming spm tuh,mmg kusut musut hbes jelah,
I was scared sbb all my life people arond me tend to thnk that i neyh mcm genius,blaja pun sng jea.When the ugly truth is i had difficulties in my study..okay bla bla bla..Cite neyh pnjg sgt act!
Cut short lah kn,I GIVE UP!i dh tanak bngun from katil pun,oh lets just keep this private lah kn,
But it was one of my worst days in life,i even started thinking of commiting suicide,
ye ye x cye kn??
then mom and dad came to the rescue!!Pnjng bjela lecture ak kne,bngkak mate menangis and klu tadah my tears sumpah bley wat mndi seminggu,
But sorry guys,biarlah tht thing only me and mom and dad je tawu..

I then realised life is too sweet to frown about
I am still young
I tend to do mistakes
And people do love me no matter what
I am blessed
Its not the result that counts but the journey to conquer it that matters
I do wanna live my life
after all i am only seventeen once kn?
Its my seventeen!
(:

Pride (:

2010-03-19T19:26:00.001-07:00

I find strength in jilbab that rarely few are willing to stand for
(:

HE SAID (:

2010-03-18T08:52:00.001-07:00

According to him I talk too much
But he loves it..
(:

Wanna wanna

2010-03-18T08:00:00.000-07:00

I wanna wanna eat and get fat!!!

rockstar (;

2010-03-18T00:10:00.000-07:00

I wanna be a rockstar and rock my own upsie daisy world

Wonder woman no no

2010-03-16T22:58:00.000-07:00

Memandangkn i had been like lama gila hell x write
I find it pleasing to write
So let's see this is the school break
And i am a SPM candidate

What do i do??
I am suppose to study right?
wrong!!!
I had my enjoyable moment
Of sleeping more than 20 hrs dails
Eating my stomach out
And back to sleeping again

I don't know why its just that i need to recharge..
I'm not Wonder woman right??
So i need my own break too
Yea i know a few days can effect my study but i desperately need it
So i decided that today
17 march of 10
Is my productive day!!!
yeay me

haha
gtg
momsie's calling
muah muah

Note to self:-Go go go

-.-

Anne Frank (:

2010-03-16T22:42:00.001-07:00

Hey hey hello beautiful people!!!
Sorry i hadn't been able to write for a couple of days

So currently i've been reading
The diary of a young girl by Anne Frank
I can't believe its so heart breaking
And its a true story dated when the German had a war
So i hadn't finished it but i'm about to
Will tell u guys the details later

Note to self:-Be thankful

-.-

Sick as a pig

2010-03-13T07:08:00.000-08:00

I'm sick
Of all the lies and cries and tries
I'm utterly sick
Of pretending that i am not
I am sick of being sick

I am sick of looking at you
and looking away as if
if i didn't care when i do
Oh yea i so so do

And judging by the way you look
I know that you still know
yet pretending things never happen

I am sick of school
waking up and moving on
living the routine
PRETENDING
to be so fond of it

How i wish i could just can't wake up
even if the dream is bad

I'm sick of acting normal
when my heads going crazy
and tired of stuff
when there's so much to do

How i wish i could just froze
forever

-.-

Hello and goodbye

2010-02-19T09:24:00.001-08:00

Currently i'm still alive and breathing
But i'll be dead meat sooner or later
I haven't completed my homeworks
Talking about dead
I can sense that death is approaching
The faces of all the teachers
They can shake even the strongest person in the whole wide world
Mean??They will show u what mean is

PART 1
So i had a fun day yesterday
We went to mid fr Aisya's crocs but it turned out that she can't find one that can please her
She woke me up really erly in the morning and lucky her
Dye dah kt KTM weyh!!!
But Danisha mmg x panik,
I had my bath and figured out what to wear and i called Noyr
And forced her out to,haha
Sorry babe,
So i went to the lrt station and met nor at ktm at bts,
Man the train was packed like a can of sardines
Tapi member punya pasal redah jela,

PART 2
We arrived at mid and met with Aisya's mama and Tiqah,
Tiqah is hyper and cute
And amik Aisya away and met with Zahid and Nyo
And went pusing2 since Aisya dah usha crocs
And we snapped a few picture using Zahid's D40 i guess
Super cool
And then met up with Figu which was on a date and also shiqin and aqil yg cri brg
Ramai gile hell bdk2 kusess kuar kot hri tuh
Menyampah
And pegy cari kasut Zahid yg hot tuh.haha

PART 3
Lunch at kenny rogers
Me,Nor,Aisya,Zahid,Maw and Nyo
Sume pun nk oder quater kn??
haha
Had fun eating and again,
Tangkap gamba lagi,
Aisya had to leave
Pusing2 romp and shopping
Jalan2 lagi
And then pusing2 lagi,

And went lepak2 at MPH
haha yg nih pun super best
And we went down to Mcd sbb nor nk sgt Ice cream
And maw and Nor blek
So its just me and zahid
And we had a looong chat
And terserempak ngan bdk2 f3 and also f4,
haha
And then teman Zahid shopping lagi

PART4
Zahid pun balik
So its just me all alone
Went lepak at MPH lame gile hell
Waiting fr daddy to call me
And at about 9 bru blek rumah
Penat sgt!!!

But guys i had fun
Thanks fr the marv days out
It really cheer me up a little

*people i met that day
Nor
Aisya
Maw
Zahid
Nyo
Figu
Aqil
Mimiee
Shikin
Tie
Sobam
Bulu
Sin
Anis A.

Banyak lagi lah but too lazy to type all of u guys
hehe

*note to self:Take a break

-.-

I JUST DON'T KNOW

2010-02-17T07:17:00.000-08:00

I hate to think of what tomorrow will bring to me,
Or even what will i be risking due to my action
Or just how much i can change a little thing

Oh dear bloggie syg,
Y am i so pathetic??
I know that i will be facing spm soon but my action doesn't really show much effort..
I am so frustrated with me
I feel like giving up
I am not as bright as before
And i feel left out and humiliated
And i feel small

Help me please

-.-

Feels like throwing up

2010-02-16T02:16:00.000-08:00

Oh it has been so loooong since i've updated you dear bloggie
Dah sah lah Danisha mmg pemalas,
gahh
Holiday had been like the 4th day but i haven't even started my kct
All i could think of is sleep and sleep and more sleep
Talking about revenge of sleep huh??

School is tiring and packed
Feels like i can't even stop to catch a breathe
Tataw lah y this year school stars the program kecemerlangan like awal gile hell,
haih,
But who am i to moan and complaint around right??
its for my own good,
huuu
So better get my ass moving before i got the school dislike feeling is back

Note to self:Hold on!!

-.-

And here we go again and again and again

2010-01-30T07:31:00.001-08:00

2006-2007-2008-2009-2010!!!
i can't believe i'a a fivers now,
its so awkward doe
Sumpah seronok hell tade senior annoying cm tuut tuut
Haha

But i'm tired
And sick of the same things
Every single day
The same old routine

Here it goes

5.30am-Wakey wakey Danisha
6.00am-Breakfast mari 6.15am-Subuh prayer
7.00am-School is dull
10.50am-Recess!!
3.oopm-Lunch and Zohor prayer
3.30pm-Prep
4.30pm-Off to asrama
5.00pm-Asar prayer
5.30pm-Sports activity
7.00pm-Dinner
7.3opm-Maghrib prayer
8.00pm-Night prep
10.30pm-Isya' prayer
11.00pm-Dorm dah pnggil
11.30pm-FINALLY!!!MY BED TIME!!!

haih

Note to self:-11 more months!!

-.-

New chapter

2010-01-30T07:20:00.000-08:00

So i had a few problems
And by each day its getting more and more messy
Ahh lantak kaw lah

Hmm let me see,
I turned on a new leaf
I'm starting to cover myself up
As in pakai tudung
Wohoo cahaya keimanan beb
ahaha
Enough with the jokes
I'm trying to improve
And this seem to be a fresh start
Nevertheless we need improvement right??
Right??

For better or for worse i am seriously trying to figure out my life
Then maybe things would not be messy after all
And i can try fixing bit by bit
Positive thinking btulla,
ahaha

*note to self:Ipmrovise

-.-

Ps i love you

2010-01-29T09:30:00.000-08:00

Isn't it strange when u look back at all those time u left behind
When u suddenly realize that its slowly slipping from your finger
And when u look through a photograph its just so close
So small and fade
Okay2 itu pembukaan post jea,
haha

Currently i am missing you,
And i hate it,
I hate seeing u smile
I hate seeing u happy
I hate hearing your victory
I hate it when u look so good and strong
Because i can't stop missing you more and more
And it is getting under my skin,
annoying but lovely
And missing you had become a passion
And an addiction so hard to let go off

I had to admit that i am not strong
As i couldn't stand being far from you
And trying too hard to stay away from you
Cause we both need our own moment and space
Spaces to be figured out and filled,
Not with mistakes as life is too short to make one

And the most unlucky part is i am making a big mistake
Of letting you get in my heart that much
making me feel loved
And of loving you back,
That is when stupidity strike

And i admit it,
I am missing you
I still am
LOVE

*Note to self:-Be strong would you??

-.-

Super seventeen (:

2010-01-29T08:53:00.001-08:00

Age is just a number
true true
And here i am listing out those close to my heart
Celebrating their birthdays on January

6th-Ahmad basyar bin anuar
26th-Siti sofia farhanah binti rahmad
27th-Muhammad amir rayhan bin jailani
29th-Nur zulaikha binti zolkafli

well nmpaknye i have to buy u guys birthday presents huh??
Haha its okay lahh,

And my wishes to u guys,
Have a blessed life ahead of you
And the list goes on and on..
(:

*Note to self:-We're growing older each secs

-.-

When the going get tough,the tough gets going

2010-01-29T08:09:00.000-08:00

Omg i miss u blog like hell,
Tick tok tick tok(Thats the clock sound)
And before u knew it January is coming to an end
And that strange feeling of insecure is there,
How if i failed in my examinations??
Or i just went to tired to proceed??
Or i feel like crying??
The thoughts of that scared me cause i'm not ready,
I am just not,
And the thoughts of my final year of schooling feels so awkward,
Its like i am leaving my childhood memory behind,
Those memory that i want to let go so much before

Okay lets talk about school,
I am currently in a good class,
Its not the best but i pretty like my class and the people in it
And i started to love school,
haha
Kill me but i love it,
despite the fact that kakak dm jahat gile babai,
Seriously who the hell are you nk blagak sgt??
And what else huh??
Tahhla but at school i had so much to share,
I guess i just have to remember it later,

*note to self:Love life

-.-

So long goodbye -.-

2010-01-01T19:12:00.000-08:00

Its 2nd of january and so it goes,
The day to go back to school
Its not the best thing in the world but currently i am stuck to it,
12 months,12 months people!!!

that's all them i am free
I had just found out the most horrible news
They had shuffled the class
Say goodbye to ranking

I am so pissed off when i found out that i am in class 5
Fucking shit
I cried and cried because i was frustrated
But thanks to aisya and noyr
They manage to soothe me

Well i will be back in a week for the braces
I am praying that sooner or later
Things will be better
Strive in SPM
9A+
Amin

-.-

Promises

2010-01-01T07:32:00.001-08:00

Since today is the first day of 2010,I think its a great day to start a new promise to myself as i do not believe in new year resolution

Danisha soraya shaiful bahri promises herself to :-

Study like there is no tomorrow
Stop spending time on the internet
5 time of prayer a day
To be someone more mature
To be a good student
Not bringing handphone to school anymore
Giving the fullest comitment to study and whatsoever
Less cursing and talking about other people
To take care of my health
To not be easily breakable
Strong and hard inside out
Less shopping and more saving
Stop thinking about things that is a waste of time
Living my life to the fullest
Triple my effort in studying
Being nice to everyone
Not involving myself in a relationship

I maybe cannot reach everything that i listed but i certainly will try

I am not perfect but i am certainly trying to be someone better

-.-

10 year after 2 millenium

2010-01-01T06:40:00.001-08:00

Hello hello 2010
What can i say really
time is really flying..

09 has been a memorable memory to me.It has been good,it has been bad but most of it,it has been a remarkable year for me.
Being sixteen only come once in your lifetime so i have no regrets in whatever action that i had done.Yes people do critizise me for my action but what the heck,who doesn't make mistake right??I'm learning to be somebody better,stronger and more reasonable.
So i'm listing out things i regret in 09

Regrets:-

Letting my results drop
Neglecting my studies
Getting into a fight
Not having enough time for improvements
Letting my body being fat
Not doing the best in hockey
Neglecting my study
My study!!

Well that's some that is proper to be post i think,
And here's some of my best moments in 09

Memorable

Being a f4
Hockey national level
Teacher's day celebration
The "night" activity
skipping school
Skipping school activities
Talking bad things
Sweet moments with him
H1N1 holiday
And lots more than this

Well things are not going to be the same right??
people move on,grow up and be more mature and responsible on our own action

I certainly hope 2010 will bring more memorable things to me and not forgetting,teaching me to be more human
A better one indeed
Amin

-.-

B is for bitter

2009-12-31T03:10:00.000-08:00

Its raining inside
And there is nothing i can do about it

The feeling is so insecure yet it is fade
I saw it in every single ticking second of every minute
Yet,i can't reach for it

I've tried so hard yet still failing
Trying to smile when it hurts
Making funny jokes yet still crying

I can't erase the memory
I just can't
I've lived with the memory for so long

That i can remember every single detail of it
Perfectly played over and over again
Flashing across my eyes
Heard for so many times

When i look at you
I can't help but to cry
Knowing that it hurt you too
But we are left with no other choices
That we have to lived with it

My heart is still bleeding
And the bad part is
The poison had spread all over my body
Making me so vulnerable

I am crying when i'm supposed to laugh
Angry and depressed

Its not your fault as i know
You too are the victim
Caught up with the wrong decision
At the wrong time

The promises never had soothe me
I am still afraid
Not wanting to let go of the thoughts
That i will get hurt
Again and again

Kill me now
Burn me alive
And throw my ashes away
As i do not want to live in this memory anymore

-.-

Preparing

2009-12-31T00:39:00.001-08:00

Will be back at school the day after tomorrow
*Sigh,groan and moan
There is nothing i can do to make time move faster right??
so i'm just gonna have to go through it
And pray that its gonna be over fast
The faster the better (x1000)

*sigh
I am currently preparing myself mentally and physically for the torture time
Say goodbye to good food,television,decent shower,fucking great bed
time alone,internet and the list goes on and on

So here's the list of things for school:

Ironed clothes(check)
Long sleeve shirts(check)
Tudung(check)
Stocks(check)
Stationary(check)
Comforter and teddy(check)
Pyjamas(check)
Books(check)
Footwear(check)

Thats a few of them only(the basics one)
Don't be silly,thats not all but i'm to lazy to type it all
Typical-.-

Oh well,so much to do,so little time
-.-

Check!!

2009-12-31T00:21:00.000-08:00

Sorry i didn't updated my blog yesterday
Lazy me huh-.-

So here's the deal,whoever is reading my blog for sure will know my latest update

I'm wearing braces!!!!

I am not sure either its a good thing or not but hey,
Everything happens for a reason kn??
And i am putting a positive thoughts in in

Well wish me luck yea
-.-

Where

2009-12-29T12:07:00.001-08:00

Its currently 4.08 am and once again i'm not yet sleeping
Thanks to my bad habit of tidur whenever you feel like to
Gahh

currently there are a few things that i'm looking for

My stupid charger.now where can that little devil run eyp??
My habit of sleeping 20 hours a day
The anxiety of studying
My holly Quran..Who took it from my room!!?
The so call semangat habit of waking up in the morning
Friends who said that they too x tdo mlm but when i text it just went silent
My sense of self pitying
My charger!!
I need my stupid charger!!!
Chargerrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!

Maybe i am unstable
Maybe an alien had changed my brain with theirs
Or maybe i was just acting real stupid
Ohh i am about to puke
-.-

super duper unlucky

2009-12-29T10:22:00.000-08:00

kuakui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu
tapi kini ku sadar ku diantara kalian
aku tak mengerti
ini semua harus terjadi

kuakui ku sangat sangat mengharapkanmu
tapi kini ku sadar ku tak akan bisa
aku tak mengerti
ini semua harus terjadi

Reff:
lupakan aku kembali padanya
aku bukan siapa- siapa untukmu
kucintaimu tak berarti bahwa

ku harus memilikimu slamanya

kuakui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu
tapi kini ku sadar ku diantara kalian
aku tak mengerti
ini semua harus terjadi

*sigh sigh sigh
I guess this is my current position
I'm sick of keeping this secret alone
So i guess i need to let it out a little
Why you are so close yet so hard to reach??

Wait,maybe its because you don't belong to me
If only you could see

*Sigh sigh sigh
-.-

Best boy (:

2009-12-29T09:57:00.000-08:00

Allah selamatkan kamu(x2)
Allah selamatkan muhd syakir auf
Allah selamatkan kamu
(:

HaHaha happy 16th birthday boy

Knowing you was a great pleasure indeed
Knowing that you are always there to catch me when i fall
And to always look into my eyes with a strange kind of comfortable way

Walaupn kite start baik 07 but i known you since 06 so it has beeen a long time kn??
And i simply love every second that we had spent
You are something special and different from the other
And that what make me want you more and more
(Not in a relationship way)

Have a blast for your upcoming year
And enjoy a joyful time ahead of you
May Allah bless you
Aminn
-.-

Sibukk ah kaw -.-

2009-12-28T19:44:00.000-08:00

I woke up today only to receive a text messages from your sister
And i started feeling angry and depressed and frustrated
Every time we are in a fight over something you would go running around crying like a little baby to them
And i as the victim have to give up

I had it with you
I don't even know you and i wish i hadn't
Because your only here to messed up my life more and more
Why don't you get it??

I am so over you
And it has been a long time
There is no more you and me because i'm flying solo
Get it??Flying solo mean don't follow me around lah fool
You said you macam dah tade maruah jadah bile u come begging for me
You said it yourself kn??Tade maruah jadah!!!
Habistuh kenapa nak kejar i lagi??

I tawu you saket kn??
You selalu cakap you dah tak lame and i akan bahagia nanti
And sometime i wish that time could come sooner sbb i had it with you
I am bored of your words
Sick of goodbyes yet coming back for more

You sound angry when my friend tol me to let you go
U don't have the rights to be mad at them
After all,they know me better than you do and i love them more
Its not you okay??

So please please please let me live in peace
That mean no more you
I am sick of you

Blahh
-.-

One to two

2009-12-28T18:58:00.001-08:00

One two three four five
The days until school re-opens and boy was i nervous
And there are still a few stuff that i need for school
And here's the list

Tudung sekolah
school shoe
socks
Slipper

Ughhh i can't think of anything else since my mind is full of the thoughts that i haven't even started my homeworks yet
So long goodbye fun and leisure
-.-

Haha-.-

2009-12-28T08:50:00.003-08:00

Tired tired tired and bed is all that i could think of
If a strong wind coming pass me i think i can fall right now
Today i went for hari suka ria with them
So malas to fix my hair so i just pulled any shirts thats on my mind
And off i go to klcc
Met with Amar and Adam (my cousins)
And went jalan2,
I had fun and currently my feet can patah any moment
I need some quality sleep
*Sigh sigh sigh
-.-

Please please please -.-

2009-12-27T08:09:00.000-08:00

As the new year is coming closer,there are a few things that i really really really want
And here's some of it

Shutting off

2009-12-27T07:45:00.000-08:00

These past few days there are plenty of thoughts that were in my mind and i felt crazy just thinking about it
Let alone fulfilling it
I've been on this roller coaster of emotions
And the ride just can't seem to stop
maybe i am thinking of school too much
Please dear God help me
i need some serious quality sleep
-.-

Crazy over you

2009-12-26T21:10:00.000-08:00

Suddenly i feel like missing you and almost everything about you make me feel sick
Sick of trying so hard not to miss you
I think that u've cursed me under some kind of spell
A very strong one indeed
So here i go again listing out every single little detail of why u've capture my heart so much
Yet i am never tired of you

The way you always make my day with your simple morning wishes
Your deep eyes that caught me on my nerves
The way you doooze off when you get tired
How big your smile is when you saw me
The crazy look in your face when looking around searching for me
The way you make silly mistakes
The way you tried so hard to cheer me up and make me smile again
The way you feel confuse about me
How in just one single look you can make me turn head over heel
How your always there for support
The way you care so much about me
The way you heard so much about me yet wanting me more and more
The way you respected my privacy
The way you never get tired of me
The sweet thoughts about me
The way you feel without me around
The way you make me smile
The way you make me laugh
The way you kiss me goodbye

And the list goes on and on
I just fucking love you bby.
(:

Half awake

2009-12-26T20:33:00.000-08:00

Often i would wake up crying or shouting in pain
And i don't know why or how i was able to do it almost every night
Its really annoying and i would realised that it was just a bad bad nightmare
And i tried hard to chase it away
I don't know who or what is trying to tell me something
And i haven't got a single clue of what it would be
And to my shock,i couldn't hold back my tears
And i would sit and cry and cry and cry
Like a baby or a kid who just lost her mummy
And in a way or around it too hurt me
And every morning i would wake up feeling guilty
feeling sorry that i couldn't do nothing to help
I just mourn feeling the pain
In a pain so complex that i couldn't think straight
All i know is i was in pain
I am in pain
And it still hurt

Half filled

2009-12-25T09:41:00.000-08:00

There are still a lot to be done after all this while
(sigh)and i am starting to get tired way too soon

my current priority is in my study and i am getting way far behind
tons and tons of homework
hot and smokin new figure or body to die for
stuff that need to be packed and arranged
laundry will be good
cleaning my bedroom which look pretty good to me
a shopping or two doesn't hurt
presents for the upcoming birthdays
stop worrying about school
having a scheduled life
adding more dime into the accounts
studying studying and studying
stop worrying about school
and again,stop worrying about school

Please God be with me through thick and thin-.-

Sigh -.-

2009-12-25T09:10:00.000-08:00

(*Currently listening to northern downpour by fob)
I'm pretty sure that new year is coming closer and 2009 is about to end
I don't believe in new year's resolutions since u can always change at any moment you wishes too
(*D'massive di antara kalian)
There are still a lot of stuff that need to be done and to be fulfilled
And i think new year is the least thing i need right now
After all,how do you really count what you have achieved so far??

(*That green gentleman fob)
As i stare blankly at the screen,how i wish that i can solve all the things in my past
Like how i ended up being doing certain things in life that i truly deeply hate
Or fixing old relationship and not making the same stupid mistakes twice
(*Mika relax,take it easy)
Knowing how helpless i am just knock me off my feet
I am certainly not ready for my upcoming life as i am just a human
A fragile and breakable one

If only i could freeze the time i would do so
As i am too tired to try and proceed
I quit trying a long time ago
(*Kerispatih tapi bukan aku)

I am not certain of how or can i please them and their thoughts about me
I am not a quitter nor a strong fighter
I cried over a failure and some silly incident
And i find it hard to recover again
And the picture of failing haunted me
over and over and over again

(*Btrfngers mati hdup kembali)
But i do know that i am leading a blessed life with family and friends
And what doesn't kill me makes me stronger

Yea rite

2009-12-24T23:09:00.000-08:00

I am stinky and tired and im not in mood of studying..

BBY:Kakak neyh asyik main laptop jea
ME:(rolling eyes)Shut up!!
MOM:yea dik,asyik main jea ble nak study??
ME:I did study lahh
MOM:when??x nmpk pn
ME:study bkn nk tnjuk kt org..
(yea rite i mls ooh)
MOM:pttla result trun
ME:ala klu study x msuk pn buat ap kn??
MOM:yela mcm mne nk msuk asyik ingt main jea
ME:don't judge the way i study..i did

And i went to the kitchen and grabbed smthng to eat..
I guess i really need some serious studying..

xx

2009-12-24T21:42:00.000-08:00

I was browsing through the web and look at what i found:

When a girl bumps into your arm while walking she wants you to hold her hand

When she wants a hug she will just stand there

When u break a girls heart, she still feels it when u run into each other 3 years later

When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind.

When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be
around.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine, " after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are so wonderful.

When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a girl says, "I miss you, " no one in this world can miss you more than that

When a girl is mean to you after a breakup she wants you back, but she's scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever

bitterheart

2009-12-24T20:51:00.000-08:00

Idk why but my current obsession is blogging and fr some reason i need to write
woke up really really late thanks to my sleeping disorder
I tend to do something interesting today but frankly speaking,nothing interest me anymore
I've been doing this stupid surveys that is totally a big waste of time

And i think the energy just went dead and rotten
Oh well,will post some more later
(:

2009-12-24T11:48:00.000-08:00

Random
Do you have any pets?	yupp
What color shirt are you wearing?	basically not a shrt
Name three things that are physically close to you:	phones laptops lingerie
What is the last book you read?	sej f4
Are you or were you a good student?	am
What's your favorite sport?	hockey
Do you enjoy sleeping late?	sometimes
What's the weather like right now?	dark i guess
Who tells the best jokes?	huh??
What was the last thing you dreamed about?	had difficulties sleeping
Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?	nope,will soon
Do you believe in karma?	idk
Do you believe in luck?	rarely
Do you like your eggs scrambled or sunny side up?	scrambled
Do you collect anything? If so, what?	everythng
Are you proud of yourself?	almost
Are you reliable?	pretty sure yes
Have you ever given money to a bum?	to a what??
What's your favorite food?	to much to rmber
Have you ever had a secret admirer?	yea
Do you like the smell of gasoline?	god no
Do like to draw?	i suck at it
What's your favorite invention?	idk
Is your room messy?	looking good to me
What do you like better: oranges or apples?	i hate 'em both
Do you give in easily?	nahh
Are you a good guesser?	nope
Can you read other people's expressions?	if its obvious
Are you a bully?	only in certain aspects
Do you have a job?	a student??
What time did you wake up this morning?	8
What did you eat for breakfast this morning?	domino's pizza
When was the last time you showered?	noon
What do you plan on doing tomorrow?	move on
What's your favorite day of the week and why?	depends
Do you have any nicknames?	lots of it
Have you ever been scuba diving?	i would love to
What's your least favorite color?	orange
Is there someone you have been constantly thinking about? If yes, who?	maw(:
Would you ever go skydiving?	yes please
What toothpaste do you use?	colgate
Do you enjoy challenges?	mayb
What's the worst injury you have had?	a cut in the heart
What's the last movie you saw?	princess and the frog
What do you want to know about the future?	don't know yet
What does your last text message say?	i love you too
Who was the last person you spoke over the phone to?	nor
What's your favorite school subject?	chemistry
What's your least favorite school subject?	religion
Would you rather have money or love?	both
What is your dream vacation?	Amsterdam
What is your favorite animal?	none
Do you miss anyone right now?	maw(:
What's the last sporting event you watched?	football
Do you need to do laundry?	yeahh
Do you listen to the radio?	yupp
Where were you when 9/11 happened?	can't remember
What do you do when vending machines steal your money?	curse it
Have you ever caught a butterfly?	yeah kut
What color are your bed sheets?	cream and pink
What's your ringtone?	silent mode on
Who was the last person to make you laugh?	family
Do you have any obsessions right now?	him
Do you like things that glow in the dark?	yeah
What's your favorite fruity scent?	raspberry
Do you watch cartoons?	sometimes
Have you ever sat on a roof?	shisha at rooftop counts??
Have you ever been to a different country?	yeah
Name three things in the world you dislike:	school school and school
Name three people in the world you dislike:	i had more than 3
Has a rumor even been spread about you?	always
Do you like sushi?	california roll
Do you believe in magic?	ur not disney
Do you hold grudges?	no no no
Take this survey or other MySpace Surveys at PimpSurveys.com

Jelly O

2009-12-24T10:31:00.000-08:00

Its way past my bedtime and the current clock is showing 2.32am
These few days i had a difficulties sleeping

Owh i thnk we text later lah syg,u pn cm moody jea
gdnite have a sweet dream
yea u too..gdnite syg love u..
love u too..

And he went to sleep..can't really blame him though
After putting like a million time of thoughts,here i am typing anythng i could think of
I do worried thats holiday is gonna be over so soon
A magic chant of u cn do it danisha do no good..damn it
Everything about school do really annoy me
And when i mean everything,i really do

The thoughts of all the fucking retarded people who act nice,
Sumpah i think i can slap them right in the face if they ask fr it
All these while i had been patient enough of playing the nice game and i hate it
I'm not a bad influence to anyone but people can't stand it to follow
(ececeyyy bajet hebat lak)

And keeping quiet do no good and it doesn't fix anything
So i am gonna say it out loud and proud that i am gonna study hard these upcoming 2010
so all you losers leave me alone would you??
I know that u hate being far away from me or keeping ur big mouth from talking bout me but do it fr ur good
U might need some luck in life fella cause u ain't going nowhere acting real nice and good
Real life is harsh and hard and it just doesn't wait fr u

I so would stranggle u to ur most horrifying death if u messed up with me again
I had enough of it pathetic people
I used to be so scared that i would cry all night long thinking how to make people to accept me
Reality check!!Who doesn't have enemies??
I cried out loud and fought the battle and although i am not winning
I learn to be somebody good and strong yet vulnerable and reliable
And i learn to love everything in life either its good or not
And you should too even when the sky is falling down

People tend to look at ur bright side so give 'em ur best
Except no one definition of life as it blong to u..
To all the kg.com out there,do what u wanna but i am not ur competetion
I'm way better..
Hard strong confident
(:

A million needles

2009-12-24T04:42:00.000-08:00

Sumpah school sucks,i am counting days to hell,or others call it school
the words kusess is like a big fat nightmare to me..and it runs deeply into my veins and nerves,
to the deepest and darkest place

The thoughts that i will be away from home scares me..

"Adik ur like dh 4 tahun kt sane..what else to complaint??"daddy said
And he makes the stupid calender and it sounds like this..
dulu f1,tup tap tup tap amik pmr..Yeay dpt 8a tup tap tup tap dah f5 dah dye!!
Yea daddy i know..But its almost everything i hate..

Things i hate about it:
The shoutings of the freaking mpp's(Plajar putri!!sila bla bla bla...)
The waking up in the morning part
The tons and tons and tons of homeworks!!
Schedule!!(like i'm some kind of robots)
The "why don't you finished your homeworks!!!"part
The "Esk ada hafazan yea,x hafal duk dataran gemilang,"
The dm's food sucks smtimes..
The fucking long line fr not a good food..
The perhimpunan so that they can nag at us..

2009-12-24T04:06:00.000-08:00

Woke up really early today..
Its eight and its not even tuition day,

(thnks to u stomachache)
Picked up sej textbook and read,
Friends are on..

PMR result is on..
and i was cuak fr my cousins..
Text maw..
They were otw..
Good luck Anis..
Cm biaselah..texting maw..
(Current addiction)
And it annoys me..

Kudos to the f3..
They beat us..

Had a phone call with Aisya..
ME:babe,the f3's beat us up..
SHE:yeke??brape??
ME:82%..Pandai gila babi..
SHE:Oh well,bru challenging sket..
ME:Haha yupp,okayla babe gtg.tc.
SHE:and u too..
(:

And a phone call with nor..
ME:babe.
NOR:yes,
ME:result f3 gempak..
NOR:yeah..
ME:weyh asal lme x cntct..
NOR:Haha sorry malas..
Babe jusco ad sale..
ME:oh yeah??nk pegy!!
haha okayla bye..tc..
NOR:u too..
(:

i was pretty lame to study..
c'mon danisha..
U can do it..

The thoughts of schools is closer
spm and study annoys me..
and the phone credts are low..
ahaaa..

mum cooked nasi dagang..
hooyeah..
Shoots,
can't take spm outta my head..

Cheers SPM!!!
Your killing me..

(:

AMANINA YUSRINA AHMAD KAMAL(:

2009-12-23T18:11:00.000-08:00

I had my own definition of frnship..Who says you need the rich people,or myb the glamor groups or the born to be hottay..No i don't..And i'm not one too..Having to think of it,i had a pretty good fucking life and i met a bunch of awesome people..But only some stay in my heart and leave a big impression on me..The others??Well you can say that some stay fr their own stupid self,Weyh pegy jahanam lah org cam kaw yg kwn sbb ad tujuan..I don't fucking care about you guys..And ad gak type yg so mengelabah judge org sane sini padahal diri sndiri kampung jea!!Get me losers!!Kaw KAMPUNG jea tpi bajet bagus..Pegy jahanam jugakk la weyh..

And WORLD!!Meet my kawan sampai kiamat friends..AMANINA YUSRINA AHMAD KAMAL or should i say...Nenna(:I met her at school and dulu cam menyampah gile dgn bdk kecoh neyh!!Like wtf girl,u are loud!!But time is a really good teacher and as time passed,I get to learn about her more and more and we found a lot of strange and wierd common in ourself..I'm not saying that my perangai dye same mcm i and vice versa but when put together,it just when CRAZY!!!!

Let me tell you,she had her own definition about life..She's loud,she's talkative,she get mad easily,she's not afraid to tell her thoughts and never afraid of falling..And she really complete me..Dye cam smthng that makes u feel comfortable to be with..Thats who u are to me..We got really2 close when were 14 i guess..Time tuh sekelas..And yea we picked up a few fights and it was a hell of a perang dunia ketiga men,we just went crazy..Bom sana,bom sini..KN nenna??

Tpi lame2 we can't stay of each other for too long..And kteorg berbaik semula..Nenna babe,do you remember the thing yg happened in f3??yg dngn senior tuh??Yea it was a dark moment fr all of us..It was pitch black and everyone jauhkn diri drpd kita sbb takut but not u..U stood still pretty strong and confident and when things started to look like its falling apart,u are like an angel that are willingly being there..What more can a friend ask fr right??And it caused u trouble and i'm so sorry fr not being there fr u like u did to me before..

I fucking hate all the people that cause us this much of pain and until now,the wound is still there deep in my heart and u can say that's its well stitched but the cuts still bleed profusely and its bleeding on and on..I just hate the way they judge at our frnshp..We weren't there to prove to anyone that we are way better than u are..We are just being ourselves and i can't believe its that kau kuno gile!!!Fucking bodoh to judge us...

And the bad part is u went away nenna..How thorn was i at that time??Pretty thorn up and it was like ripped apart and shredded to millions of tiny pieces.We couldn't make u stay..And i was devastated..Not because u are not there anymore to protect us,but its because things would never ever be the same ever ever again..I was only about to know u and u left..so quickly in a blink of an eye..

I'm so sorry nenna if i'm never too good to stand by ur side and being there when u need me..Or saying out loud what i thought about u..But believe me i syg u gila babi that i can't describe it..And i'm sorry that thing got bad when u left and u thought that i was never there fr u..I promised to be smbody good and strong fr u..U've changed so many aspects in my life and i do love love love u just the way u are..

Kite same same fucking stupid!!!!
and i just simply love it!!!
(:

HOTT as it could be(:

2009-12-22T02:34:00.000-08:00

Life is too short to worry about..
Haha sumpah tade kene mengena..
I was thinking and i kind of get this crazy idea of posting some of my most 'memalukan' moments in my life..

*I confidently put my grocery stuff inside somebody else trolley and then mmy shouted:
"adik!!!itu bukan trolley kita.."
OMG!!!

*I trip in front of a whole bunch of guys while running in my heels!!!
And as u expected,they laugh so hard that they can blow the rooftop off..

*We were having lunch at a kopitiam on our way back to kuala lumpur from kg and i was acting pretty cool when suddenly daddy said,
"adik,whats that antenna yg terkeluar from your blouse??"
Haha ap tuh think fr urself yea..

*It was a good day for an emcee at school but the wayar buat hal so i had to speak using the hailer,
the teacher suddenly shouted at me in front of everyone because i TATAW GUNE HAILER tuh,
DUHH MNE AD SKOLA AJAR GUNE PN..
ahaha

*My friend sindir me dkt dlm class when he said,
"Pencemaran bunyi sgt bahaya kerana mungkin menyebabkan anda cuti migrain satu minggu,"
Dumb guy,the whole class laugh at his jokes..

*From our back to home from klcc,
i confidenly mintak ticket tren,
"Kak,Sri Petaling satu,"
And she said,
"Dik,nk pegy Sri Petaling platform seberang jln lahh,"
Shit!!

*On a class presantation,
we were delivering a very good forum,
Thanks to the great pengerusi,Me of course!!!
When tetibe i terkeluar my Tganu accent,
Huuuu

Well i can't think of anything else and the laptop's battery is low,
Will write some more later,
Just enjoy every moment and take time to look back at that moments,
You'll be smiling..
(:

No more you

2009-12-19T20:47:00.000-08:00

Your damn stupid you know,for willingly ready to hold my hand when everyone is not.They told you that i'm not good for you but you ignore them..Who would expect that this could be smthng more than a frindship but no more than love..You and me is spelled complicated..We had something and we lose it..

Its not you but its always something wrong with me,i'm not good enough to hold your hand and say my vow out loud.I'm to afraid or lets just say that i'm a coward..A coward to grip you and let you stay..So i let u drown slowly..Knowing that my own poison would kill u gently and u wouldn't even have a single clue and u would still love me no matter what..

I've tried to push you far and hard away from my life..I fucking hate you for making me very weak and vulnerable..A whole different version of fragile me..Your like a magnet to me and the bad part is that i want you more and more everytime we're apart that it makes me sick just thinking that i've fooled you..

I lauged at the thoughts that i would fall in love with you.so strong and confident that i wouldn't fall that easily..And i've eaten my own jokes..I did love you but read this,i'm a heartless bitch that can rip you apart any secs without a single tear..

Look at me,don't love me..Don't think of me and don't get close to me,but u did..U stupid thing..All this while u've been really nice to me ignoring every single lil hole i've made in your heart when i hurt you..I should give you a medal for yor stupid action of being there for me no matter what..

I've think long enough to make my decision that's gonna hurt u,its going to reap me apart that even sunlight look like dawn to me,i'm not a whole without you anymore..I'm weak and alone and scared but its you that i want to save..Cry all you want and but i'm leaving you..

Too bad so sad hate me now,
thank me someday...